Lost And Stucked

You are just what i needed

Date: Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Time: 7:42 PM

I kept on thinking, will i be wrong if i were to fall in love again. Or should i just act as if i dont know whats love. I traveled everywhere, looked for you every inch of this earth, cycled every road, swimmed across every seas and fly almost every part of the clouds searching for you. Wondering if you're okay. I'm sorry and i truly am for not moving on. After 4 months had passed you're still on my mind everywhere. All those plans we made for the future it just poooof gone with the wind. It hurts knowing the truth from you knowing what really is going on but it kills when i found out that you're lying. It really hurts me and yeah, i was dissapointed with you. You already made your decision. A decision that puts a big wide smile on your adorable smile. I'm sincerely letting you go cause' if i were to still be with you i'll make you mad, frustrated, dissapointed with my attitude and we'll always fight and i know there's one girl out there thats gonna take care of you and i really hope she will.

You mend up your ways once and you came back to me. But will you be hurt if i'm gone. Will you regret having your ways turn and end up receiving nothing from me. Will you still be mad, angry, frustrated or will you be happy for me? I'm not blaming you for my absence later cause' you're all i ever wanted but you did it at the wrong time. You left me at the wrong time. I still need you cause' right now i got nobody but you. Now time flies and i guess i hafta move on i cant still stand there waiting for you when you're already with somebody else. I hafta be strong even when i cant, i hafta act as if i'm strong to face all this. Dont worry its just an act. Will you be back when you think you're ready? Cause' i will. No matter how deeply you've hurt me and no matter what people think i'll still be back when i think you're ready to face life with me. Whatever it is, just look behind your back and i'll always be there.

No matter how hard the waves hit and trying to separate us and no matter how confusing the directions are to get me to you, i'll be there and you'll be waiting for me. I'm surviving every move i'm gonna move and every steps i'm gonna take that leads to you. Even if im stucked in the centre of the earth, i'll find my way out i'll do whatever it takes and i'll be back be back with scars and broken bones yet with full of love to give to you. Thats just the way i could think of to have you. And i'm doing all this cause' i know, even when i say i hate you deep inside my heart i;m crying cause' i love you too much till i cant bear to be with another guy.

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