XOXO LINA(:

4 years and still counting.

2011-04-23T22:42:00.000-07:00

MID YEAR IS TOMORROW!!!!! And i left my magic booklet with my friend :'( Everything seems to be going fast this year and yeaaaaaah that means N levels is just a few blinks away HAIZ. I gotta start hitting the books before something expected happens >.<
Well basically life has been one crazy rides. People changing to the biggest bitch. Uhh.. Especially your friends. Sometimes its just annoying. When someone asked you to change your sick attitude but when you've changed they are the ones with the damn sick attitude. up its pretty annoying and i find it really.......whatever yknow? Friends that you used to call them DEPENDABLE are not THAT dependable as you thought. Friends that you thought was by yourside all the while even BITCHES about you. Friends that you thought was your BESTFRIEND even LEFT you in the middle of the friendship. And then after a while you'll start realising the friend that you first met in school, the friend that you dint call your first bestfriend, the friend that you had the first but big fight with, the friend that you left just becox of a small matter. That was actually your bestfriend. Even if you cant show it even if she didnt know she is your bestfriend at least yknow that she was the one that has always been there for you. Through thunders and rainbows and i love her never would i doubt about our friendship going far even if i have only one year to spend with her, wherever we might be separated you'll always be the first one that thought me what friendship really is. You cant just leave a friend for another friend. You cant just have two bestfriends and in the end left the first one and give some stupid excuses just to be with the second one. And most importantly you cant have TWO BESTFRIENDS. Its just not fair you see. Alright thats it i gotta start hitting the books. Till the next longlonglonglonglonglonglonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng post. Bye fairies!

XOXO SRI HERLINA

its time to get it started

2011-03-10T00:01:00.000-08:00

Oh my its been sucha long time since i updated my blog. Well, life is pretty tough now and very busy too. Even though i know its gonna be a long run out here i still gotta hold on to it. People says good things comes after you had the bad ones. But..its really tiring nowadays :/ I dont wanna be sick anymore thinking about all these. I shouldnt have think about other things except for my studies. Well, i know its kinda lame but really, i needa study more. I needa get things straight in life. I needa push everything aside and start to get my brain working on every subjects. Although i dont have the confidence to be in Sec 5 next year life keeps on moving right? So yeah i gotta work really hard. I gotta stop thinking about all the unimportant things in life. Seriously man, time is super short i gotta change before its too late. I guess this is all for today. I'm sho sick having a bad bad migraine :( Open up your umbrella when its raining people! Bye lollies.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

i still am able to live this life.

2011-02-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

Have not been focusing in studies. Oh my i still feel like i'm just 13 or 14 years old :( I've been thinking alot about you. Idk why but everytime i'm alone, you'll always appear and i couldnt concentrate on anything else besides you. Yeah i know it sounds like 'wtf?' but well i really dont know what to do. N levels is just around the corner and i'm still having this mindset. Pfffft, must get everything over and done with but i dont seem to know how to do that. Everytime i see couples hugging i'll start to think about you. Everytime i see somebody's in a relationship in facebook i'll start to think when will i be with you again. Will i even get the chance to? Everytime i see couples taking photos alot and alot of photos together i wonder when will we get to snap photos together again. This is really disturbing. I really wished you could feel what i feel now. I hope you're still missing me even if its just a little bit. Well, at least i know you still think of me :/ I hope God will be with me and help me to get the strength to be a strong lady like how i used to be last time. Anyway, best of lucks for those who's having their Common Test next week. XO ♥

2011-02-09T06:22:00.000-08:00

I dont understand why does it still stays the same. I thought things wasnt meant to be messed up. I dont know what more to do. Life is really confusing. Crack roads everywhere, unlevel sea water, never ending moving cars. I wasnt strong back then, but now i know i am. Even if i dont believe i can do it i believe that i still have that confidence. Nothing really changes, its you who changes. With your changes it changes everything surround you and yeap it affects me. You dont know how i feel, that is why you acted this way you never understand whats inside me. You always thought with this everyday smiles and laughters i was okay and i dont need any show of careness. Well, you're wrong. I hided the sadness, hold up my tears and keep my sad face away. Cox i know you hated all that but why did you put all these in me? One day i hope you'll realise that you made the biggest mistake of your life. A mistake to actually thought that i wasnt really the one who you needed most. Loveyou, xoxo.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

FRIENDS ARE LIKE BOYFRIENDS ONLY THAT WE CALL THEM BITCHES

everytime i tried i know i wasnt strong

2011-01-28T22:09:00.000-08:00

The moment you hugged me, look into my eyes, hold my face close to yours and eventually kissed me on my lips, i hold up my tears and tried to kept my mouth close from saying i really miss you. Time do passes fast when the moment i was with you. I wonder if i could ever be with you again. Yknow i miss you and i really love you. Its already been three years and i still couldnt get you off from my mind. Everytime i tried to let you go, you'll come back to me and yeap, i fell for everything. I'm nt mad you. I'm mad at myself. I'm mad for falling in love. I'm mad for getting attached. I'm mad for hurting myself by believing things that i know would hurt me. I'm blaming myself for everything cox i know if i didnt saw you and said that you were the one for me, i wouldnt be like this. And now i'm having difficulties to replace you. I just want you to know, if one day i've moved on, i kissed my new boyfriend, hold his hands a lil more tighter and if you hear me saying 'i love you' to him, i wanna let yknow that i will always tell him that i had the most wonderful time with my first love and my first love meant everything to me. Even though i love my new boyfriend, you're the first one to teach me how to love, so if its not becox of you i wouldnt have that new boyfriend. I love you riwasa and i miss you.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I BELIEVE EVERYTHING BAD THAT HAPPENED ALWAYS HAVE THE GOOD THINGS BEHIND IT ♥

9 years and still counting :)

2011-01-26T05:06:00.000-08:00

I think i'll just let things be the way it is now. Things is already the way i want it to be. I really had enough of all shits in life even though i know there's still more to come, i'm ready to face it and go through it whatever it might take me. Yeap, im becoming that strong girl already the one who knows how to control herself, the one who doesnt do stupid things just to release her stress away from her mind, the one who thinks positively before thinking negatively. Anyway, i just wanna say sorry to those whom i've hurt. I couldnt blame anyone cox i wasnt being myself back then. I was someone whom i'm not and yeah i've realised that now. That girl up there on the left, she's been always there for me, entertaining my stupid jokes, trying to cheer me up in any way, always listen to whatever complain i have to complain and never fail to be there by me. I love you, not only as a friend as a bestfriend. Yup, i was wrong to say all kinds of hurting words to you, i know i was a jerk back then but dont worry, i know who i am now :) I dont care whoever gonna read this, really i dont. Even if negative remarks are given i wont give a damn care. All i know is i'm sorry for my mistakes and yupppp i've realised it all now. Even if its not fully my fault, i'm matured enough to give in first :) Alright, goodnight lovebirds. xoxo.

if i could make a wish right now

2011-01-19T05:53:00.000-08:00

I was always prepared for 2011. Ready for whats gonna come and ready to face it. But i never thought 2011 was this bad. Everything doesnt seem to be what i wanted it to be. Maybe this was my repay back or was it just something that god has given? Dad, i really hate you. I wish you can just get the fk off. I just wish mum was strong to just be separated by you. I really hate you. You dont even deserve a daughter's respect towards a father like you. Why cant you be like other dads? You said you'll kill me. COME ON KILL ME. I DARE YOU TO. I'm waiting for it. I wished i was that some daughter whose dad are dead or who doesnt know who their dad is rather than having a father like you. I'll swear not to talk to you anymore. Seeing you everyday already disgust me. I dont mind leaving the house staying with my other cousins or aunties as long as i dont see you. I FKING HATE YOU NOW.

ALL I CAN SAY IS GOODBYE.

when nobody was here to cry with me, the earth is always here.

2011-01-10T03:43:00.000-08:00

Everything i wished for didnt really turn out to be what i wanted. What i thought was good turns out to be bad. What i want to be better turns out to be worse. Life isnt as easy as you think. All night you think if he's missing you. Cry and stare into space until you feel you cant take it anymore and just sleep for the next few hours and then waking up with heavy eyebags and start lying to your friends saying you got some insomnia lately. You dont wanna eat, you dont wanna talk you just dont wanna do anything. I am tired of facing all these. I hope one day i could be as strong as before. I had enough on being cheated on. Being stepped on. Always being lied on. I was never this weak before, until something special came to me and just walked his way out of my life. My world now is isolated. Nothing but sadness and tears. Yes, ima very emotional girl. I'll always smile and laugh act as if everything's okay in school but i put away that masks once i'm alone. My emotions are mixed idk what else to do.. Its hurting me its making me drowning in life its just making me feel so insecure. I hope one day god shows me how wonderful my life can be if i wasnt like this..

XOXO SRI HERLINA

IF YOU WERENT HERE AT THE FIRST PLACE, I WOULDNT BE LIKE THIS.

everytime i tried to stay strong i know i was pretending

2010-12-23T02:43:00.000-08:00

Do you know how it feels like having someone with you but they act as if they never existed? Having anything you want but never did you ever get to feel true love. Someone who said that he doesnt care if you died or anything bad happens to you, he'll never fall a single tear. It hurts doesnt it? And to make things worse, you cant control yourself. You're always losing grip. Trying to actually pretend that you're okay, smiling wherever you are when you actually are not okay ; at all. Dont you get sick of pretending all the time? Well, i do. Always typing to a computer about how you feel not having anyone to talk to about your problems ; well even if you have they wouldnt exactly will understand you. Get that before? And then you feel like running away from everything but you know it wouldnt solve anything but make the situation worser. Everytime you think of killing yourself you always will think that you wanna save your life for something better. Trying to talk to a person so badly cox that is the only person you want to be with right now. But you know that, that person wouldnt care about you at all. And then when it comes to the end, when you got nothing to do you'll just lock up yourself in the room talk to that special bear a person gave you acting as if that is him you're talking to and then you'll just end up crying and crying and crying untill you think that you;re tired and then you'll fall asleep. The next thing you know is, its already morning and then it repeats.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

Baby, hear me cry. Hug me tight. Wipe my tears. Make me smile. Listen to me whine. Feel my pain. Please, i need you now.

sometimes you have to let go

2010-12-18T03:07:00.000-08:00

I MISS SCHOOL I SERIOUSLY DO. And my pig partner that can never be separated with me, hahahaha eh amira next year serious year eh!!! Oh my N levels is just next year and i'm only a quarter prepared for it. Even though its still far away you still hafta be more prepared okay!! Okay. So basically my mum is having her holiday leave already and yeah this whole week (except for yesterday) i didnt went out. Boring kan i know. Yesterday went out with Farisyah Fat Kid we were planning to go to Escape and farzanah and afiqah couldnt make it last minute. I WANT ESCAPE THEME PARK LAH!!!!!! So at last we went to simei banquet to eat first which we didnt even finish half of our foooood. I was having my first day of period and i had this really bad cramp it was one hell of a cramp i tell you. After eating went to pasir ris park and rent a bike. Hehehehehehehe it was so windy and fun! Then after that we went back my home and slacked for awhile before syah2 leaves and me goin silat. It was overall a slacky day lah but it was fun :) So till here. Bye bubblegummies!

How bad you are, you're still my bestfriend and my love to you grows bigger each day ♥

XOXO SRI HERLINA

YKNOW I LOVE YOU THEN WHY ACT THIS WAY.

something that we have to learn to accept

2010-12-13T01:37:00.000-08:00

Life moves fast and i aint giving any shit no more. Enough is enough like seriously. I'm not gonna be nice like i used to be, cox i'm tired of always getting fucked all over. I dont even wanna tell my secrets or anything personal and that explains i'm not trusting anybody cox they'll smile after that and when they do behind that fake smile lies that backstabbing bitch. I dont mind getting far away from people cox in the end they'll still be leaving then why should i bother? I changed not to be any nicer or any meaner. I'll be in the middle of it cox what i know is every girl's a bitch even those you're close with, you used to trust on whoever cox the fact is everybody never speaks the truth but always talk shits. And lets just face it. Everyone has changed whether in the starting, middle or ending of school. We're all going different directions. Broken hearts and fucked up friendship. Somehow somewhere we gotta start searching for a new love new friends and we'll no longer hang out with the usual cliques no more that we actually thought there's gonna be 'friends forever' We've all changed. Either for the better or the worse.

And despite all these things in life i've planned myself to get over on things that should have done a long time ago ; that is getting over him. He doesnt worth anything thats mine. Yes everyone knows that i love him like some mad cow and i really cant imagine seeing myself with someone other than him. Yes i'm exactly over there. But why should i sit at home cry in the middle of the night and just waiting for him to just at least text me when i know that he doesnt even am thinking bout me. Yes, it hurts me seeing him talking to other girls falling in and out for them and one day i'll have to be prepared, whether i am or not seeing him holding, squeezing, kissing his new girlfriend. And he's gonna do it a little more tighter just becox i'm there seeing everything cox he knows it kills me. Yes i still wanna be friends with him, but do i even wants it? Cox all he'll talks about is how great and amazing his new girlfriend is and make me jealous. And i simply doesnt wanna hear it. I've to move on, be with another guy other than him. And when he sees me with someone thats not him, he'll feel sorry all those things he did to me and especially the time he let me go.. He'll realize that he made a huge mistake when he actually decided to choose that girl rather then me when he actually thought that he never love me the same anymore. So i'll not be spending my nights staying up so late just to get a missed call that will never ring, a text message that will never be received cox i know he just wanna ignore me, so why should i be bothered then? He'll ignore me, pretend that he doesnt see me cox he knows anywhere inside me its killing me. Yes its gonna hurt very much but it'll hurt me even more when i'm actually loving someone that's loving someone else. This is all going to hurt..
Knowing that my cute face aint gonna be on his phone anymore, i'll not be that person who used to spend my every moment with him, i'm not that girl whom he'll be talking to on the phone late night its gonna kill real bad. But after few days months years of waiting my phone will go on blinking hoping that he's texting me saying that he wanted me back. But i trusted myself, even if he wanted to get back with me, he wont tell me and at that moment of time i'll realised that he doesnt care bout me anymore. And sooner or later when i'm upset he's not that first person whom he always had been to be called by me. I'll prepare myself cox he's no more gonna be the one putting a smile on my face. Yes its gonna hurts alot but i gotta hang on a little tighter and hold my head up and show him i'm actually better off without him and i was wrong to think that i need him in my life which actually i really dont. And one fine day, he's gonna feel so bad cox he made the biggest mistake of his life which is letting me go, and i'm gonna prove to him that i actually dont need him anyway. YES I'M READY TO FACE ALL THESE EVEN IF ITS GONNA TAKE A WHILE TO BE HAPPY AGAIN.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

SOONER OR LATER MY LIFE STILL HAVE TO CHANGE.

and i'm missing you again

2010-12-10T20:26:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO GO ESCAPE THEME PARK BADLY PLEASE :( Its been a long time since i went there okay! And i missed the thrills hehehehehe. Well, i'm not scared now :) But there's one problem. THERE'S HEIGHT LIMITS. AND THE LAST TIME I WENT THERE, I NEED SOME ADULT TO ACCOMPANY ME FOR MOST OF THE RIDES AND MY HEIGHT BACK THEN AND NOW IS STILL THE SAME. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~ I dont care i still wanna go hehe. Okay so yesterday was silat training. Like finally i've gotten my silat uniform. I've really got nothing to talk about. Hahaha, okay i'll update when there's a need to. Bye lollies!

XOXO SRI HERLINA

STOP SAYING YOU STILL LOVE ME IF YOU ACTUALLY DONT!

i wish i had my strength back to face all these

2010-12-07T22:08:00.000-08:00

Went breakfast at macdonald's yesterday. Had a really bad stomachache after that haha macdonald's poison our fooood man. Then went to buy some stuff after that and proceed to my house. Took some photos well we were bored at that point of time. My brother then came home and make a big fuss! Eghhh. My cousin then came and amira went off.

We went to eat at KFC. Like oh my god i ate kfc 5 times in a week!!!! But im still a skinny kid man i dint grow at all! Only that i gained 3 kg. Hehehe i like. Before that we went to collect something at Bedok CC and oh my god i thought it was a phonebook yknow that small phonebook. Well, its not. Its the BIG HEAVY VERY FAT YELLOW PAGES AND WE HAD TO CARRY IT ALL THE WAY TO KFC AND BACK HOME!! Should have read the form that told us to bring our own bag! '-.- Went home and took photos with my cousin. Pictures are in facebook anyway. And oh i ate 2 prata egg at night. YEAP I HAVE AN ATTITUDE OF A FAT KID BUT DONT WORRY FAT KIDS ARE ADORABLE!!! ^^ Okay bye bubblegummies.!

I dont know if i could hold on to all these any longer. Things had went too far away from me and i cant seem to be catching up with the others. Ima loser. A big fat loser. I suck at everything. Being a bestfriend, a friend, a daughter, a sister EVERYTHING. I just fcuking suck at being those! My ego-ness and tantrums are taking over my life. I just dont know how to control it. Ima fucker a big stupid fucker. Yes, my self-esteem is going low now and guess what? I dont even give a damn bout it! See! I just feel like going to somewhere and cry out every tears i have. No point still keeping it cox ima loser. I SUCK AT EVEN BEING MYSELF :'\

XOXO SRI HERLINA

my favourite childhood friend ♥

2010-12-06T06:23:00.000-08:00

Look how weirdly cute we are together. Awwwww ♥ After so long i get to meet this short cute kiddo! HEHE. So we went to bugis searched something and went kfc to eat. mmmmm chickennnnnn :) Well, i gained 3 kg and me likey! ^^ Then went to esplanade and camwhored over there. We so the happy yknow. Then it rained '-.- So we went to marina square and walked around like stoopid fools. HAHA. Then went to ehub and took photos again. We should do this more pls ^^ Ayu caught me addicted in these two words, pls and me likey. Its annoying but very the cute :) We talked about how our friends changed so much haha and bitched about some people, well what do you expect when girls get together hah? Please lah dont tell me you never gossiped before hahaha. Ohkeeey thats all. Pictures are all in fb so yah bye stickies!

XOXO SRI HERLINA

THE BEST WAY TO SMILE AND LAUGH AND FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING IS TO BE WITH YOUR BESTEST CHILDHOOD BABE ♥

i never wish it would end

2010-12-01T01:39:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry to think that you're a jerk. I mean, i never thought you'd still loved me when all this while you actually said you dont. But why did you say you dont? Or maybe you're just lying to make me feel better? I dont know..i really dont know. Well, if you choose to lie to me i'll always find out one day. But i'm not gonna be mad, cox i'm no longer yours ; but you're always and forever mine. I wished yesterday was like tomorrow and the next day and everyday i really wished it was. You have no idea how madly inlove i was with you yesterday. And yes my lips still taste the sweet kissed that you gave me yesterday. I really didnt thought yesterday would be so romantic. Oh wow, time really past very fast and i was really hoping yesterday would never end. I'm sorry i cried cox i know that, that's gonna be the last time we're being like couples and yes it was really heartbreaking thinking that i cant hug, kissed and cuddled to you whenever i like. I love you still and you know i wouldnt stop. I wish one day you'd be mine again ;)

XOXO SRI HERLINA

IT WAS YESTERDAY THAT I WANT IT TO BE LIKE EVERYDAY.

i never imagined it hurts this much

2010-11-29T18:56:00.000-08:00

And for once i thought i could spend the moments with you before it never comes again. Well, lesson learnt ; Never place my hopes too high cox it will drop somehow and when it drops everything will be shattered and never get to fixed it back. If only you knew how sad am i, heartbreaking depressed when you said NO YOU CANT YOU'RE SORRY. And to make it worst, your promises kills me. Yeah i understand you're working blahblahblah, but oh shit man i got myself into you ONCE AGAIN. Hmm, i should really stop msging you or contacting with you IN ANY WAY. If thats just the only way for me to live my life with a true smile on my face, THEN ITS GONNA BE LIKE THAT.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I'M SORRY BUT MY TRUST TOWARDS YOU IS SLOWLY FADING.

the beginning of a new chapter

2010-11-21T00:45:00.000-08:00

Okay people. Had enough of problems. Friends love family? Dont give a hell damn care anymore. JUST GONNA LIVE MY LIFE :) People, life is once enjoy it before it lasts. Haha. With my bestfriend by myside and my awesome friends with me, smiling and laughing wouldnt be a problem to me now :) I wasted my tears crying and my time waiting and i'm not gonna do that any longer. Well, maybe once in a while? But definitely not EVERYDAY. Its not that i dont love you no more, i'm just trying my very best to move on. There's a saying, if you love somebody its better to let that someone go and yes i find it 100 and 1 percent true. Even if its gonna hurt seeing that person leaves your life at least he's happy and when he's happy it will make you happy seeing him happy. ?? zzzzz '-.- Well whatever it is, I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH COX YOU WERE MY FIRST EX BOYFRIEND WHICH GAVE PERFECT FULL CIRCLE OF LOVE AND CARE TO ME :) Besides that, did i tell you my holidays are awesomeee? Haha, but quite boring sometimes cox somedays i'm really plan-less. But after i get my books already i'm gonna stay at home and STUDY and get my ART STARTED. Yes ima good girl. WTH? NEXT YEAR N LEVEL DOHHHHH MUST BE SERIOUS ALREADY. No more eating in class, shooting small pieces of paper with rubberbands, sleep during class and favourite come late to school. Huhu ^^ Okay bye lollipops.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

ITS TIME TO LET GO AND LIVE MY LIFE. 2011, COME AND LAUGH AND SMILE WITH ME ♥

if its over then its over!

2010-11-17T21:54:00.000-08:00

Well i've had enough of everything already. Hallimah, i just want you to know even if we cant be close like how we used to be the last time we are still bestfriends in the heart and i still love you like my own sister so dont be sad anymore and i'm sorry my attitude is like this. Well, this is me. Finally everything is over, oh wait. To 'hxhqhqq' please lah if you wanna say those kind of things at my tagboard put your bloody name. Dont be sucha coward. DONT BE A CYBER GANGSTER PLEASE. The problem's over why do you have to be a busybody to talk about something that's over. Hah, people nowadays super irritating. My friends and family put a bright smile on my adorable face yesterday when actually i just wanna sit and cry about everything on my awexome 15th. Life is really hurtful. Anyway, I MISS 3N7 :(

XOXO SRI HERLINA

FATANAH PIGGY, BESTFRIENDS FOREVER ♥♥

i just need you to appreciate my new friendship

2010-11-09T02:05:00.000-08:00

We've been friends for almost 8 years but we were'nt that close in primary school days but we became closer when we met in secondary life but things was rough between us in year 2009 but well we pulled everything off. We solve things using vulgarities talking to each other violently but in the end we understand each other and everything was in place. I didnt expect that we would be this very close always there for each other. I love her like how she love me and even if we were to fight again, we are still the best of friends. Well, she could be really annoying to you to everyone but she is still my bestfriend ♥ I hope this friendship will lasts and let me just tell you, ima gonna miss you when you're leaving after your N levels :'(

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I'M SORRY TO HER. I'M SORRY I CANT BE CLOSE TO YOU ANYMORE. I HAD ENOUGH. I'M MOVING ON WITH A NEW LIFE. HOPE YOU ARE TOO.

i should have known what type of a friend are you

2010-11-08T03:54:00.000-08:00

I thought losing you would make me lose my beloved friends too. But i was wrong to think that way. Well, they're still here for me when i'm in need. After all the shits i'm going thru right now, they up there never failed to make me smile and laugh. I had an awesome day today. I LOVE YOU GIRLS ♥

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I'M SORRY BUT YOU BROKE MY TRUST I HAVE TOWARDS YOU.

I'm never ready for the end

2010-11-02T20:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i think its not worth it thinking about you everytime. You're not worth any tears. But i cant help it. The memories we had, days we spent together were just too sweet. Till i pretend to be who i am not for the sake of making you love me. No, i was wrong i was stupid to do all that. You know i loved you for three years and for the next upcoming years i will always and will never stop loving you. I want to be strong and face this life alone by myself without you but i cant. I'm not used to it. And well, i know i have to get to soon enough. Cox you'll not be there for me anymore. You're not gonna be by myside anymore and i hafta accept the facts. Well, life goes on and the next thing i know is you'll be gone for good. I'm wasting my every seconds typing about you on every single one of my post. Daniel, yknow i love you but you're gonna be gone soon. And that soon is just round the corner. I'll try to find my own wings and fly by myself. Last thing, no matter how far we're gonna be apart, you'll always be the first one in my heart and trust me i'm gonna miss you like a whole lot.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

SENTOSA WAS AWESOME AT LEAST IT MADE ME REALISE EVEN IF YOU'RE NOT THERE MY FRIENDS ALWAYS WILL ♥

ITS GONNA BE ALRIGHT SWEETHEART. I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. XOXO :)

I've had enough of everything

2010-10-30T04:38:00.000-07:00

When are you gonna change? Come on man, its the end of the school and there you go making all this attitude shit? Oh my god, seriously if you have any issue that you think you're not satisfied about me, TELL IT STRAIGHT TO MY CUTE FACE. Whats there to hide from me? Babe, zaman biler mahu bbual2 blakang ni semuer? Kalau nak prangai ni macam, ge pakai uniform primary school kau balek.You've known me for three fucking years and you know what type of a person am i. But i dont understand why you hafta keep things from me. Hey, i'm not the person which will be mad when you tell something you dont like about me. Thats not me. Cox i'm matured enough to eat and swallow what people comment about me, well thats a good thing indeed so that i can change myself for the better. If you're gonna act like this for the rest of your 1 year being in the same school with me, then dont even bother calling yourself a trued friend of mine. Cox my friends dont act this way.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE FRIEND I COULD DEPEND ON, BUT WELL I WAS WRONG TO THINK THAT WAY.

it cant be healed no more

2010-10-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

Aku tahu ini semua hanyalah dugaan daripada yang di atas. Aku tidak boleh mengubah apa-apa pun kerana ini semua telah ditakdirkan. Aku hanya mahu lihat engkau bahagia bersama yang lain. Tetapi janganlah engkau sesekali memaksa aku untuk mencari pengganti buat dirimu itu. Kerana tidak seorang pun yang dapat mengganti tempatmu di hatiku. Hanya namamu sahaja yang ditulis dihatiku ini. Maafkanlah aku jikalau aku sungguh menyebalkan. Aku hanya ingin yang terbaik untukmu. Janganlah engkau menyakiti hatiku lagi kerna ku sudah tidak sanggup untuk terus bertahan.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

MUNGKIN INI HANYA ANGAN-ANGANKU SAHAJA.

i'm stucked up

2010-10-21T03:17:00.000-07:00

I'm not expecting anything from you. I just want you to understand how i feel how hurt have i been. Do you know that i've been through alot and you're like adding to it and it became more worse. Everyday tears keep rolling down my cute lil cheeks and i cant bear being like this every damn night. I gotta sleep thinking about my future not sleep through this pain thinking of you thinking of what would my life be when you're not around. No, i gotta stop doing that. Its not working. I'm not helping myself to move on, i'm just adding to my problems. Come on, let go of me tell me you have somebody else make me hate you do whatever it takes for me to forget about you. You know what to do then do it! Stop thinking whether you'll hurt me or not, cox you've been hurting since the day we were separated. You hurt me more than enough and here i am saying, i am now going to be strong when you tell me that you dont love me and you have somebody else. I'm gonna be strong and start to fly on my own. Trust me, just do it.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

MAYBE I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO THINK THAT, OHHHHHHHHH YOU'RE TOTALLY THE ONE FOR ME.

Everything's not working

2010-10-20T05:38:00.000-07:00

I wanna LET IT GO AND MOVE ALONG. I donnu why am i waiting like a statue with a broken heart while he's enjoying himself with a new girl. It doesnt make any sense at all. I dont want karma to knock his balls down. But i'm not waiting. Do i sound like i am? No no, i'm not i just want him ta know. But do i think he even care in the first place? Wake up your idea! He dont. There's guys waiting for me but no, i just need to go to him and wait. Would it be heartbreaking to find out that another girl is liking him and he picks her, not me? Oh come on herlina.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

WAKE UP AND LOOK AROUND, HE MAY BE ONE IN A MILLION BUT THERE'S ALOT OF GUYS YOU HAVE NOT SEEN YET.

I LOVE YOU FATANAH ♥

it was never hard and never easy

2010-10-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

When i reminisce our past times together i will always remember of our likes and dislikes together. Why must i be the one always carrying all the burden while you over there smiling and being happy always? Maybe i'm in the wrong and the only cause is you changed but whats the difference in you? Always blaming me. All your mistakes is covered but mine has always been our conversation without you caring about my feelings and you just go straight without even passing by.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I NEVER WANNA LOSE YOU BUT YOU MAKE ME WANT TO BUT EVERYTIME I TRIED TO I FAILED TO.

I was that girl

2010-10-17T05:06:00.000-07:00

I'm too much for you. I will always cry when you say something slightly mean. I cant handle anything. I cry alot. Its just because i have feelings. And becox i just wanted to hear you say you love me. I'd get jealous easily. I'd get jealous when you talk to other girls. I'm so annoying. You had to hide it from me so i wouldn’t bitch about it. And becox i just wanted you to commit to me. I thought you were faithful, but you lied so i could find out later and be hurt even more. I just wanted the guy i love the most to love only me.

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I was the girl you lost that loved you like no one else could. You didn’t want me when all i ever wanted was you.

take her with you and forget about me

2010-10-15T22:45:00.000-07:00

Tiga Tahun berlalu dan ku masih disini
Takut untuk meneruskan hidup tanpamu disisi
Wajahmu slalu ku bayang menghantui diriku ini
Ku masih mengharapakan engkau untuk kembali
Setiap hari ku menangis memikirkan kamu
Dimanakah kenangan kita yang dulu
Akankah kita kembali seperti waktu dahulu
Maafkanlah aku kerana ku terlalu merinduimu
Akulah yang menghancuri semuanya
Akulah punca untuk segalanya
Tetapi tidakkah kau mahu kita gembira
Seperti saat dahulu kita bersama
Aku akan disini tetap menunggu
Walau sedalam mana kau membenciku
Sejauh mana pun harus ku pergi
Tak akan ku henti hingga ku dapatmu kembali

Yang Menyayangimu Selalu, SRI HERLINA

DONT YOU WORRY, I'LL TRY TO BE STRONG STANDING ON MY OWN.

it gets harder everytime i try

2010-10-14T19:33:00.000-07:00

its time for me to get up and start to move on
its hard for me to hold the tears but i hafta be strong
i know its gonna be hard and take very long
but if you miss me, listen to our first song
i cant always keep thinking of you at a time like this
and i cant always be keeping silence cox silence a bliss
i can only try to keep loving you and thats the least
but someday i gotta start searching for a new kiss
i've always been there when you say you need me
i always left you alone when you want to be free
but sometimes without you i feel so lonely
if you could feel how much it pains and it hurts
the one you really love and treasure left you first
if you would know how much i want to be with you
then you would know why i left out of the blue

XOXO SRI HERLINA

I'M HEARTBROKEN.

Time flies, People change.

2010-10-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

It has been a very long time since i updated my blog. And this is gonna be tha last time i'm blogging till my EOY is over. I updated cox i got nothing to do and to let my blog look not dead i shall blog telling you i'll be busy studying for my EOY for the rest of 2 weeks STRAIGHT. Yeap, studystudystudy. drawingdrawingdrawing. pffffffffffft -.- Gonna start studying already cox i've been concentrating on my Art too much. And yeah, its gonna be a long year for me for the next 3 years coming. All i could now is, 'haiz' haha. Wtf sia herlina. Alright, thats all i guess. One thing, PEOPLE GO STUDY!!!!! Okay bye sweets. Oh wait, i love my blog song ^^ Okay BYE.

Sometimes it hurts knowing the truth and it kills seeing the truth. You made your decision, a decision that puts a big wide smile on my adorable face. You mend up your ways and you came back to my life. But will it hurt you if i'll be gone. Will you regret having your ways turn and end up receiving nothing. Will you be mad,angry,frustrated or..will you be happy for me. I dont blame you because of my absence later cause you're all i ever wanted and this is the moment i've been waiting for but you did it in the wrong time. Time flies baby and i hafta go. I'll be back when i think i'm ready. But trust me, i'll always be there for you. No matter how hard the waves hit and separate us..and no matter how confusing the directions are to get to you. I'll be there and you'll be waiting for me. I'll survive through every step i'm gonna take that leads to you. Even if i have to overcome my fears of getting through a whole lot of super scary most disgusting mascots. And i'll be back with scars and broken bones yet with full of love to give to you. I'm doing this becox of the guilt thats still stuck in my heart in my mind in my body. I just couldnt get over it. It hurts me and kills me thinking about what i've did. I dont know whats happening to me. I can see i'm changing, and i'm trying my very best not to adapt to it. Give me time and i'll be the girl you actually wanted me to be. All i need you to do is believe in me and give me the strength and confidence..

I'll still be here when you walk away.

2010-09-18T23:27:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since the last time that i updated my awesome blog. HAHA. So yeah i'm back people :D Firstly busy with school and Hari Raya. My CT2 results sucks. And i was so fucked up with my SS paper till i 'accidentally' tore the freaking paper. Come on, i studied like one mad human and all i get is 9? WTF UH. And the teacher is really biased like shit i tell you. Well, a pig is always a pig. My science. Haha, i always hated that subject so yeah, its obvious that i failed. BUT! I made an improvement in my physics. English,Malay and Geog was okay lah. At least i passed. And art. Wahsey! Luckily i passed. HAHA. Alright enough bout exams. So i got nothing to talk about. Going out at 630 later with my HMT friends. Cant wait ^^ Alright selamat hari raya yer semuer.

PLEASE STOP MSGING ME, STOP DISTURBING ME, STOP ACTING KIND TO ME, STOP GIVING MY THAT CUTE FACE, AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE STOP SHOWING THAT YOU STILL CARE COX I'M READY TO GET MOVING ON WITH MY LIFE. I JUST WISH YOU ALL THE BEST WITH HER. AND YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MINE. XOXO.

I miss you i reallyreally miss you.

2010-09-07T19:23:00.000-07:00

I miss your goodmorning messages. I miss your goodnight messages. I miss our late night phone calls. I miss our night romance we had every night. I miss hanging out with you especially during school holidays. I miss the way you you miss me. I miss the way you say you love me. I just miss everything. Now all i could do is just sit down and watch all those memories die right infront of my eyes. Just so you know, even if i'm ignoring you now its becox i want you to be happy and not to think of me. Takecare and as you should know, i love you forever.

SOMETIMES SOME THINGS ARE BEST TO BE UNTOLD. BUT IT WILL STILL HURT WHEN THE TRUTH IS THERE RIGHT INFRONT OF YOU.

HI!

2010-09-05T04:05:00.000-07:00

HI! WHO ARE YOU? I'M HERLINA'S BROTHER! ARE YOU HUNGRY? I AM! YOU WANT TO EAT? I'M FASTING IDIOT!

You are the only exception.

2010-08-31T22:51:00.000-07:00

Even though it will hurt me deep in my heart, i'll still love you like i always do. I cant bear living like this every single damn day of my life. Crying for not getting over you. You changed every single bit of ma life dude and i couldnt ask for more. But this time chances are not on my side. Life isnt always easy especially letting go of somebody you really love. You just couldnt imagine how much i'm missing you right now. You just couldnt feel how much i love you right now. And you just couldnt see how much i reallyreally need you right now. I wish i could shout your name and tell you all these. But no, i cant. Cox yknow, i'm not that strong girl everybody knows. I'm not anymore.

I'm sorry for the tears yesterday.

2010-08-27T04:04:00.000-07:00

STEP UP 3 IS AWESOME \m/ I managed to do my english letter writing and i thought i would screw up cox i was damn sick i tell ya. Vomitted inside the toilet. Walaowey mcm mau mampos gitu jack. But well, i wrote 2 pages full for my compo. My migraine is getting worse especially in school and at night and my cough is killing my throat. Aper lah doser aku? Haiyaaa. So anyway yesterday i met him and i guess what ; We really did miss each other. Awww, he's so caring and romantic as ever before. Haish, that moment was too short to be admired. Well, everything comes and go. Haha, okay i'm gonna stop my craps cox its only a few more minutes to buker. AKU LAPAR MACAM BABI. Bye stalkers.

I knew it, you're still there.

2010-08-26T02:41:00.000-07:00

Hey People. Woah, for the whole day i spent my time in the Care and Concern room missing every single lessons when CT2 is just tomorrow. In tha morning during assembly my head felt like i was banging it hard at tha wall and so i cried cox i really cant stand tha pain. Went to Care and Concern and i couldnt attend lesson cox i was having a fever -.- I wanted to go up take my maths test but i cant. So i slept for three period straight. HAHA. After recess is over he came inside the room and asked me if i was okay. He swiped my fringe and told me to takcare. Awwww <3 Farhan,bazli and one sec 4 guy came in and acted sick. WTH, nampak sangat bochui sia. HAHA. Then syadzwan was kicked out from Social Studies lesson and he joined us. Start lah dorang nyer merepekness and end up i couldnt have a peaceful rest. Haiyaaaa. At 1250 fatanah took me and send me home. Sorry hallimah couldnt go to your dance prac, i was seriously sick :c Reached home and he texted me. He told me to eat medicine and he actually was concern about me c: So went to the doctor and asked whats wrong with me and actually i had a badbadbad migraine. No wonder lah -.- Ate medicine, oooops tak puaser. HAHA. Saket per, aper nak buat. Today meeting him cox he wants to so yeah lets see what happen tonight. And anyway, i cant wait for the teacher's day celebration ^^ Thanks for the concern anyway <3 Bye stalkers.

Kemana saja ku pergi wajahmu akan selalu mengikutiku
Dimana saja ku berhenti disitulah cinta kita berputik dahulu
Tetapi sekarang semuanya telah ditiup dengan angin bayu
Tanpa kehadiranmu bunga-bunga di taman menjadi layu

Pergilah engkau bersama nur liyana
Walaupun sakit hati ini dibuatnya
Aku akan tetap gembira melihat senyuman di wajahmu
Kerana ku tahu dia lah yang kau inginkan selalu

Tak usah kau mencintaiku lagi
Kerana aku bukanlah yang kau sedang menanti
Tak usah lah kau fikirkan perasaan ini
Kerana aku sudah biasa hati ini dilukai

Namun cintaku terhadapmu tak akan pernah berubah
Kerana hanya dikaulah yang ku akan selalu memuja
Tetapi ku hanya ingin tahu mengapa
Kau selalu melukai hati ikhlas ini yang hanya mahu bercinta

Tak akan ku mengganti dirimu itu
Kerana tiada orang yang mencintaiku
Dan tidak ada yang dapat membelai
Seperti engkau cinta dan belai ku dahulu

Lupakanlah aku dan bahagiakanlah hatinya. Ku ikhlas melepaskanmu, kerana pengorbanan cintaku padamu sebesar angkasa dan sedalam laut yang tak ada batasnya.

Love isnt always blind.

2010-08-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

Despite the really heavy rain, i still went to school even though i was late. Yup, i did went to school.

Oh yes, i was pretending all that while just to show that everythang's fine cox i dont want any fight with ya no more. Cant ya see it? I'm tryna takecare of your feelings. But did you ever did wanna care about what i care? No ya dont. YA DONT. And why should i even care for your feelings? COX I LOVE YA DUDE. Yes, that's the reason why. If ya wanna know why i left without even seeing your face and just walk away pretending i dint hear your goodbye cox i was seriously hurt. Just words isnt enough to show how much i was really hurt. I hope ya understand tha message i wanna send ya. If ya dont, let me break it down for ya. "I've change for the better. For you to see that i'm a good new person so that ya wont hate me no more. But if ya still keep on hurting me, then i'm just wasting my time changing. So please, dont waste my changes love"

Where have those happy smiles gone to

2010-08-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

This is what i've been waiting for. The moment when i know that i'll smile throughout the whole day. The moment when i know that i'll be too happy till i forgot whats my name. But behind those smiles and happiness there still lies a problem. Baby, you reallyreally cant have two girls at a time. Life isnt fair and therefore you cant have both or you'll get neither. I know and i understand all this while you've been wanting to get that girl but when i found out that its bcox of me that stopped you from telling her you love her, my tears dropped. How could you even think of me when you already love her? What if she loves you back? You're gonna break her heart. If only i could tell you that i still want you *crying* i would. But tha thing is i'm not strong to do that. I want you, yes i really do but at tha same time i want you to get what you want all this while. I want the best for you. I want you to smile and be happy when you already get her. I want you to smile at me and say 'thanks' I want you to just be happy with ONE GIRL. Even if the girl isnt me, its okay i still do love you though (;

You took me way above the atmosphere.

2010-08-10T01:15:00.000-07:00

I'm still lost in confusion. I do not know when should i move on. I dont know how to get myself strong. Everytime you were there with me, i felt as though we're meant to be togetha but the fact is we're not and we cant. But i keep asking why when i actually know tha reason. I love being with you, but sometimes i hafta accept the fact that you're no longer mine. I will keep 090810 forever with me ; cox that day there was just me and you.

I LOVE TODAY ^^

2010-08-01T07:16:00.000-07:00

HeyYo! Wahsey, hari ini aku tidak boleh berhenti bersenyum ((: HAHA! OMG, today i am vvvery happy cox somebody texted me. WOOOHOOO~ Yup HE TEXT MEHH (: Yeah i know, WOW! Hahah, kay lina lame. I was somehow facebook-ing and texting random person and suddenly i receive a text msg from him. Fulerrrmaaaaak, i cant stop smiling from there on. HEHE. Buttt...he paitao me saying that he wanna meet me tonight -.- But its my fault too cox i was late and he cant be home late soooooo..he's gonna meet me tomorrow morning before going to school. Naseb baek skolah start lambat ^^ Confirm tonight cannot sleep. HAHAHAHAH! OhMyGosh, i'm so damn happy. I just love today. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ Okay bye! And oh! I am so looking forward to MONDAY. Heheheh, bye!^^

Sometimes, i still have doubts on you

I didnt knew life was this tough.

2010-07-30T05:06:00.000-07:00

Heyya! School was not awesome for the past 5 days because..our seats were separated AND SO WERE ME AND MIA =.= MADAFAKA. She thinks she's so damn big changing people seats around. Stupid nabei. She only changed the malay seats and the chinese seats stayed the same. SUPER RACIST. She said we talk alot then she herself talk like pigs. Ishhh, irritating! Kay off tha topic. Today art period was super boring. Recess was kecoh. Fought with asri. Tahu pon nak mintak maaf '-.- Then had english ; slacked all tha way. Then got tha sex talk as usual me, ashada, mia and afiq sat in tha library again talking horny thangs. HAHA! After school went tampines for awhile had some interview with brotha's friend. Then went my house then went fitness, which i dont wanna talk bout it, haish. So yeah, that was my typical daaaaay. Tomorrow ader cip lagiiiii and its gonna be very tiring. I think? And hallimah, get well soooon(: Okay bye!(:

I was too kind back then. I shall be the meanest later

There's too much to think of.

2010-07-25T06:40:00.000-07:00

HeyHo. Weekends were as usual. Saaaaaaaaaap, tomorrow's monday and guess what? Uniform un-iron, bag not pack, homeworks not done(i dont even know if there is) and I AM NOT READY FOR SCHOOL. Haish, these days things just seems so different. School atmosphere isnt the same anymore. I miss my Sec One and Sec Two Life. Me and hallimah has been talking about how much we wanted our sec three life to be like the past two years. Kankan? Hahah, i just miss the old times when there's still me and you. I'm not sure if i could wake up for school tomorrow. Kalau bangon pon untok off alarm =.= Okay, i've got nothang much to talk here. Goodnights yo.

I'VE ALREADY FOUND SOMEBODY, BUT I STILL CANT GET YOU OFF MY MIND.

I could still hear your whisperings.

2010-07-23T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. School was fine these days . Today first three period was art and as usual i'm always late for fridays. Well not always, but normally i'm late. No mood on art for the first two period, so yeah. Third period had to spray somethang at a a big piece of canvas. Recess was a disaster as i keep losing to asri's riddles and had to blanjer him air, air, air. Asri was cheating cox he asked people for answer to MY riddle. Cheater. Last period was that stupid sex talk and luckily i gave the opt out form. Me, afiq, ashada and mia went to the library. Me and mia gave afiq and ashada riddles haha, kekek kekek. After school went home and sleeeep until 4 had tuition and all and i am so restless today. Alright, aku sudah sleepy mahu sleep. Goodnight cupcakes.

I cried the entire night yesterday when i know i wasnt suppose to. I remembered you words and your promises but its all now gone with the wind. I keep staring at out photo and it really do hurt me. I guess i'm really missing you. I hope there's somebody who could help me tell you how much i really miss you. Your warm hugs, you never ending kisses, you sweet whipers of iloveyou and our endless nights together. 22nd is the date that i'll never forget. IloveYou.

Friendship lasts forever.

2010-07-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

I didnt know what to do. I feel like avoiding you but i feel its just so childish to be doing that cause' after all you're still my friend. I'm not mad at ya. Not even a lil bit. But i'm just dissapointed that you still dont understand me. My feelings and my love towards the boy whom i really love. But its okay, you make me hate him. You make me feel as if he's just useless for me. And you make me want to forget about him. Thanks though cause' if you dint tell me the truth and if you dint tell me you're contacting with him that much, i wouldnt have the strength to forget about him to hate him. Well, i really hate him now and i really think he's a jerk. But no worries, you're not at fault i'm just thanking you to make me feel strong again to make me fight my fears of losing him. Thanks fatanah(:

I'M STILL CRYING THOUGH. CAUSE' YOU KNOW EVEN WORDS COULDNT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I MISS HIM. PLEASE TELL HIM I STILL LOVE HIM.

I'm not gonna turn back.

2010-07-20T05:41:00.000-07:00

THANKS FOR TELLING ME THE TRUTH. YEAH, NOW I REALISED WHO AM I TO HIM. AT LEAST I CRIED FOR A GOOD REASON. THANKS FRIEND.

I'VE GIVEN UP ON EVERYTHING. DONT BOTHER ANYMORE.

LIFELESS PEOPLE.

2010-07-19T05:21:00.000-07:00

Oh hey. Guess what? Some idiots ruin my mood today. Yeah i repeat IDIOTS. Or should i call them JERKS? Oh come on, GET A FREAKIN LIFE WILL YA? Whats this pranking stuffs? OMG, you are really a primary school kid dude. COME ON, zaman biler mau maen prank2 joy? Oh and to your friend, please dont interfere in people convo can? When i'm talking to a person it means A not ARE. Get it? I thought you're clever? I guess i think TOO highly of you back then. I've change okay, I'VE CHANGE. But if people tries to STEP ON MY HEAD, there's no way i'm gonna be nice. Cause' when i'm nice, people might think i'm weak. Nobody think about me in that way. NOT EVEN YA'LL SUCKAS. Stop acting like a lil kid that goes around yelling at a boy whom i beginning to hate talking bout my attitude. Excuse me, this is my attitude, why must you bother about it. Does it even concern you? NO? THEN GET THE HELL OF MY LIFE! Oh yeah, I'M REALLY MAD. Dont think i would even wanna look at you guys faces when you tried to talk to me or even call my name. And one more damn time you try to test my patience, then i'm really gonna show you my damn attitude. Whether you like it or not, i already tried to warn you. AND STOP SAYING I'M GETTING MORE AND MORE FANATIC. YOU WANNA SHOW ME YOUR ATTITUDE, THEN I'M GONNA SHOW YOU MINE. FAIR AND BLOODY SQUARE.

I'm gonna put a pause in my life.

2010-07-18T00:48:00.000-07:00

I dont know what else to say. Why my love has to become like this? First You came, and then you're gone and finds out you're with some other girl. And another one came, and then gone again and finds out you're with a girl whom i know. And another one came, but when i told him i wasnt too ready yet for love, you started avoiding me. And then you're gone. And now, some other one came. What will this guy do? Kiss me infront of another girl? Make a fool of me infront of everybody? I'M NOT GONNA GET MY HEART BROKEN ANY MORE. AND I'M NOT GONNA LET A SINGLE DROP OF MY TEAR FALLING. I'M DONE WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN GOING. I'M SICK OF PEOPLE COMING TO ME AND ACT KIND TO ME. STOP IT.

And when i wanna try to go back to you, i suddenly got to know that you stopped fighting with her already. You love her back. I see you change when you're okay with her. I'm sorry i wasnt her. But at least its good to see you be yourself again. So yeah, its a goodbye again.

I'm trying to take a step.

2010-07-12T03:20:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. Dint blog for 5 days as i'm tired and lazy. Even comp dah okay pon malas -.- So basically today school was erm, fun(: HAHA. Took pictures and stupid videos with mia. HAHA. After school went to meet the sec 1T8 girls for some conflict issues. Then after that went my house with khai,marl,fatanah and hallimah. Watched KL DRIFT 2. It was really touching and romantic. Seriously it is. Next movie is KARATE KID since hallimah and khai havent watched it. So yeah thats it. I've got nothing to say. Oh wait, i stink cause i havent bathe. Okay bye candies.

I was stucked with one but now i'm down with two. I still love you, but i know i had to let you go. You're not meant for me i know. But sometimes i'm confused. Your feelings towards me keep on changing. But why? Is there something straight you wanted to tell me? Then tell it to me. Dont keep me hanging and asking what is it. Hey, i'm tired already. Seriously i am. I'm done with everything. With you, with him, with love. I dont wanna suffer myself but i realise i wasnt strong to actually let everything go.

I miss you like i used to.

2010-07-07T03:36:00.001-07:00

HeyLovelyReaders. School today was soo boring and i was restless throughout every lesson. I'm starting to do well in my maths but dropping my malay and other subjects. I really need to buck up, ct2 is coming herlina. Gonna go bugis tomorrow, accompany tahir buy dance pants at bugis street since its very cheap there. So yeah, i've got nothing else to say. Gosh i'm so tired. I'm craving for lollipops, uhhh shucks. Bye cupcakes.

Should i turn or just walk.

2010-07-05T06:00:00.000-07:00

HeyLovelyReaders. Yay, my internet is healed. But my computer and my lappy is still under repair. So now i'm using my phone to blog. My blog's not gonna be dead anymore so keep the tags rolling people! So had no school today due to youth day(i think?) and went to asyz dance practice. I was so bored so i flood khai's awesome camera with my adorable faces(: Before that i had tuition, walauweyyy i dint know primary school questions is getting harder and i actually struggled teaching my primary three student. Buat malu jer lina -.- tomorrow school already wahsey, bercinta aku nak bangon. Haha. Okay i've got nothing to say so yeah thats all i guess. Oh wait! Check out my adorable photos at khai's fb. Hehehehehhehe. Wokayyyys, bye candies.

Its time for me to take my first step ALONE.

2010-07-01T23:01:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. When was the last time i last blog, it was like 7 june? Haha, kay so here i am blogging. I couldnt find the perfect blogskin, 'semua sungguh classic' So had 'Be Yourself Day' just now but i dint wear home clothes as i need to pay two dollars if wear home clothes -.- After english ader BV SUPERSTAR. Haha, funny and very nice voices (: So yeah i've got nothing to talk about. Currently in afiqah's house. After this we going training. I AINT GONNA SKIP THIS TIME. HAHA. Okay bye cupcakes.

I SAID I WANT TO MOVE ON. WHAT PART OF MOVE ON DINT YOU UNDERSTAND?

Cause' i remember every word that you said

2010-06-07T02:41:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. Its been 1 fcuking month that i've not been updating my fcuking D-E-A-D blog. Okay lina jgn maki2 -..- Currently i'm at afiqah's house. Oh did i tell you, my comp is being such a bitch to me? Yeah it is. Holidays are here. i just came back from the most awesomest place that is Bali like 3 days ago. Bv bazaar yesterday was like super shit. Boring maha boring punya. After bv bazaar met 'somebody' Afiqah jer tahu ehk ^^ HAHA. Then went to Mac and eateateat. Today i met that 'somebody' again. Afiqah jer tahu ehk ^^ HAHA IRRITATING PER. Met him and went to tampines. Met afiqah at tampines mac and eat togetha. Something super hilarious happened at the bus stop. Its like O-M-G. HAHAHAHAHA! People, isit a tren now for girls to wear a tube and not wearing a bra and there they go showing their so sharp tits to everyone around them? HAHA! I WAS LAUGHING MY ASS OFF WHEN I SAW A WOMAN WEAR THAT! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! Kay dah lina cukop -..- So yeah, these holidays i'll be going out mostly with Afiqah Agil and maybe Natasha Nahadi. HAHA! There's nothing i want to talk about no more so yeah, bye candies.

Wajahmu berseri menerangi angkasa
Bintang itu adalah saksi percintaan kita
Tetapi kini semuanya telah berubah
Itulah saat-saat kita bersama

Engkau pergi meninggalkan diriku
Kerana kau tahu kita tak akan bersatu
Akan ku simpan kenangan-kenangan lalu
Kerana ku tahu kita tak akan bertemu

Kini kau sudah tiada untuk selamanya
Janganlah pergi dahulu iswara
Ku perlukan tempat untuk bermanja
Dan tanganmu untuk mengelap airmata

Binalah engkau kenangan yang baru
Tetapi jangan kau buang kenangan yang lalu
Janganlah meninggalkanku seperti waktu dahulu
Kerana cintamu adalah hidupku

Dont leave me here dancing alone.

2010-05-11T02:04:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. What? Exams? Yeap, it S-U-C-K-S. But the good thing is my maths paper one just now was erm, lets not say easy but i can do it(: Tomorrow is physics and i'm so dead cause' i'm actually playing the computer instead of STUDYING PHYSICS -.- OMG, i keep deleting each word that i have post. HAHA! That shows that i really dont know whatta write about. I got nothing much to post even though i've not been posting for a long time but STILL i have no stories to tell. Nothing interesting cause' there's no more you. That's why things changes to the single lady life. Lina, merepek lah -.- Okay bye cupcakes.

I remember those days when you were you

When we're together; when the skies were blue

Wherever we're together our love starts to grow

Until the time when you say you have to go

The sky turned dark and the storm came

You're playing with my feelings like a game

I cried all night throughout the rain

But i know i've to move on and begin again

I'm getting weaker when you're getting further

I keep thinking our love is forever

But you proved me that forever is never

Cause' all along i knew there was another her

I never thought i could be this hurt

And i wish i could be free flying like a bird

Never did you care about my feelings

You just look forward when you're finally leaving..

I cant fix it back.

2010-05-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

I kept holding on to that one thing and suddenly the truth was actually right infront of my eyes. ALL ALONG. Its only that i didnt see it. ou were lying all this while were'nt you. I thought you mean what you say and i really thought you really missed me. But i saw somebody, somebody familiar. I looked closely and tears dropped. Why would you do something like that. Iswara, you know i love you, why would you do something like this? Why would you evenwanna break my heart? I guess things arent meant to be for us..

HIATUS..

I'll come back when i think i want to.

2010-04-28T20:43:00.000-07:00

Heyyy yo peeps!
Natasha Nahadi here. Herlina my darling, i love you!
You cant get a friend like her, seriously. She may be sometimes
be irritating but deep down, she is super caring! I didnt expect this from her.
We share the same problem now and she's been giving me a lot of advices.
A LOT! thank you my cute friend, Herlina.

love,
NatashaN.

okay, a proper blog post coming your way!
Herlina came late today for school, get 2 offence slip.
yeah, 2 OFFENCE SLIP!

HIEEEEEEEE :D

2010-04-26T02:44:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. Woahh, my blog is dead. Yeah i repeat D-E-A-D. Mom just bought a new broadband and i realise it was exactly just like Nat. HAHA! So currently i'm in Nat's house with Zeema and Hallimah. Exams are already here infact its starting already. My english paper was like shit uhh and my malay paper, fulerrrrmaaaak, lagi power. I slept for like 15minutes and not rememberin' that i was having a malay paper. So yeah that was how my first two paper was like. Tomorrow will be my social studies and i've not covered most of the topics. Northern Ireland is like soooooo the complicated. AHHHH! Kay dah lina diam -.- So yeah i've got nothing else to talk about. I'm gonna end here and wait for my next longlonglonglong update. Bye cupcakes(:

I remember those days when you were you
When we're together when the skies were blue
Wherenever we're together our love starts to grow
Until the time when you say you have to go

The sky turned dark and the storm came
You're playing with my feelings like a game
I cried all night throughout the rain
But i know i've to move on and begin again

I'm getting weaker when you're getting further
I keep thinking our love is forever
But you proved me that forever is never
Cause' all along i knew there was her

I never thought i could be this hurt
And i wish i could be free flying like a bird
Never did you care about my feelings
You just look forward when you're finally leaving

I still miss you even when i thought i dont.

I keep forgetting.

2010-04-11T18:00:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. Yeahyeah i've got a D-E-A-D blog yo. So here i am updating my blog when i actually hafta play a social studies game. -.- Sorry for not updating my blog and make it look so dead as my computer is being a bitch to me yo. So i'm in the lab now sitting beside amira bitch since she call me 'babi' at my taggy. Fcuk you. Ima cute human(: I'm being lame cause' i got nothing to talk about due to my long absence from computer i still have nothing to talk about. Uhh..oooh! Today got enchanting moments. Nyahahahas. I'm going in the afternoon with Nat and at night with Fatanah, fuuulerrrmakkk! Okay herlina stop it -.- Mid-years coming, have not been that attentive in class, thinking about something blahblahblah, i'm so gonna flunked my mid-years SO? fcukkk -.- Bye lollipops(:

~~I keep forgetting to forget about you. Help me boy stop distrubing me~~

Damn it.

2010-03-30T03:33:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! Sorry for leaving my blog DEAD. My lappy is being such a bitch and a dumbass so yeah i cant be blogging that often. Oh, and my phone is being stolen today. So anyone just sms me through my prepaid number wokayys. The 833..blahblahblah.. okok?? I think thats all i'm gonna say. Bye dudes and dudettes!

This goes to the stealer, you know what? Get a life. Misken sangat per? Dah takder duet nak beli handphone? Asal tak amek kotex aku skali. Takot mak kau ker kau ker tkder duet nak beli kotex. hah! Stupid people! No life people! Get a mother fucking life bitch bastard! Hah!

I need you to make me back alive.

2010-03-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

I look cheerful, but i'm actually acting. I sound so happy, but i'm actually pretending to be. I dint look at you much, but i'm just forcing my eyes not to. I reacted the idontcare reaction, but thats just a drama. I'm not strong even when i look as if i am. I tried to be quiet but i want to act as if i'm strong to everybody. Prove that i'm able to face everything without you. I'm sorry i proved you wrong i proved everybody wrong. I'm not strong anymore. Infact i'm weaker than ever. I'm sorry i acted tough. Help me by coming back :'/

Maybe its true what they say.

2010-03-21T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. Time check:12.28am Tomorrow's schooling and here i am still on cyber world. Just came home from somebody's crib. Nak tahu siaper? Kaypoh jer -.- Chilled at this 'somebody' crib and shared all my problems to her. Thanks sweet(: Today went out with Natasha Anak Pak Nahadi. We planned to go Pasir Ris park, TAPIIIIIIIIIIIII! Tak jadi. So we went to eat at Mac' and had a conversation about..'eheeem!' haha, dont worry Nat, its totally safe with me. My mouth is sealed! Awww, somebody miss somebody..hahahahah! Kay stop it lah herlina. Nat..nat..tsktsk(: After that we planned to go tampines as i wanted to buy something over there. Before taking the train i was thinking should i pierce now or whaaaat? Haha, if i were to wait i will surely dont wanna pierce the next time i feel like to. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTT! At last tak jadi as Nat says "alah takmo lah lina" haha. Went to tampines and we went around window shopping. Nat bought a cute leggings andand i bought a more cuter pink rubbon scarf ^^ Then after that headed to Mac again bought sundae and went to catch bus 38. Laughed our ass off inside the bus. Shudnt elaborate here haha! "Oh i see..tut tut..HAHAHAHAH! I just cant stop laughing" Thanks Nat, i finally had my laugh(: Okay, i'm sleepy now. Nites' sugars.

I'm strong once but now its just different.

2010-03-20T21:05:00.000-07:00

"dany can be there but he will not always be for u lina.."
Now i realised that i just cant accept all those words that are true to be said long time ago. Fuck.

The moment when i laugh for everything. The moment when i cry for filling my sadness. I want you to be always there. I want you to be the one i have in memory. As long as i can breathe, as i can still walk I will always admire you. Although i still do not know exactly where are you now yet..Listen to me, i am missing you. The time when i tried changing everything. The time when i wail at my loss..The loss when i lost you..I really am changing to a whole new different person now..i dont know why, but i just feel like to. I'll be back normal. Bye sunshines.

Thats just the way its gonna be.

2010-03-17T19:42:00.000-07:00

I kept on thinking, will i be wrong if i were to fall in love again. Or should i just act as if i dont know whats love. I traveled everywhere, looked for you every inch of this earth, cycled every road, swimmed across every seas and fly almost every part of the clouds searching for you. Wondering if you're okay. I'm sorry and i truly am for not moving on. After 4 months had passed you're still on my mind everywhere. All those plans we made for the future it just poooof gone with the wind. It hurts knowing the truth from you knowing what really is going on but it kills when i found out that you're lying. It really hurts me and yeah, i was dissapointed with you. You already made your decision. A decision that puts a big wide smile on your adorable smile. I'm sincerely letting you go cause' if i were to still be with you i'll make you mad, frustrated, dissapointed with my attitude and we'll always fight and i know there's one girl out there thats gonna take care of you and i really hope she will.

You mend up your ways once and you came back to me. But will you be hurt if i'm gone. Will you regret having your ways turn and end up receiving nothing from me. Will you still be mad, angry, frustrated or will you be happy for me? I'm not blaming you for my absence later cause' you're all i ever wanted but you did it at the wrong time. You left me at the wrong time. I still need you cause' right now i got nobody but you. Now time flies and i guess i hafta move on i cant still stand there waiting for you when you're already with somebody else. I hafta be strong even when i cant, i hafta act as if i'm strong to face all this. Dont worry its just an act. Will you be back when you think you're ready? Cause' i will. No matter how deeply you've hurt me and no matter what people think i'll still be back when i think you're ready to face life with me. Whatever it is, just look behind your back and i'll always be there.

No matter how hard the waves hit and trying to separate us and no matter how confusing the directions are to get me to you, i'll be there and you'll be waiting for me. I'm surviving every move i'm gonna move and every steps i'm gonna take that leads to you. Even if im stucked in the centre of the earth, i'll find my way out i'll do whatever it takes and i'll be back be back with scars and broken bones yet with full of love to give to you. Thats just the way i could think of to have you. And i'm doing all this cause' i know, even when i say i hate you deep inside my heart i;m crying cause' i love you too much till i cant bear to be with another guy.

Cinta kita bagaikan pelangi
Tetapi cerita kita akhir disini
Manakah janji sanggup menanti
Setia menunggu sampai kku mati

Janganlah engkau oergi dahulu
Wahai putera yang ku sayangi selalu
Mengapakah kau bersikap begitu
Apalah silapku cubalah kau tunjuk

Dia lah yang ku sebut putera
Di namakan indah Daniel Iswara
Dimanakah dia sekarang berada
Kerana ku masih perlukannya

Maafkanlah aku atas kesalahanku
Aku sanggup berubah untuk dirimu
Tetapi akankah kau menyayangiku seperti dulu
Kerana arahku tidak tentu lepas ku kehilanganmu

Kembalilah engkau ke pangkuanku..

Made this specially for a special someone, XOXO HERLINA.

I dont need a goodbye text.

2010-03-16T04:55:00.000-07:00

I'M MAD. I'M ANGRY. I'M FRUSTRATED. i'M PISSED OFF. I'M FUCKED UP. I'M JEALOUS. GET THE FUCK OFF FROM ME. I DONT NEED YOU NO MORE DUDE. IF THIS IS HOW YOU'RE GONNA BE TREATING ME, THEN YOU'RE TALKING TO THE WRONG GIRL AND YOU'VE BEEN PLAYING AROUND WITH THE WRONG GIRL. YEAH, I MAY LOVE YOU, I CANT MOVE ON WITHOUT YOU, I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU BUT REMEBER THIS AND GET THIS STUCKED ON YOUR STUPID ASSHOLE BRAIN, I GOT LIMITS SUCKER NOW GET THE FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.

Holidays? I dont think so.

2010-03-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

Hey LovelyReaders. My fuck smile i always wanted to smile like that ^^ So anyway had a really long day today. Woke up at 7 in the morning bathe and all and get ready for the 'Self-image' workshop. Before i actually wanna step out of that door, i thought twice. Should i go? Will it be fun? Who will be there? Damn it, i'm already late. Heh, yeah that was the questions that went through my mind. At lastttt..i made a decision to just go. HEY! I paid a freakin 70$ for that workshop -.- But overall the workshop was quite okay lah. Not that bad. Survived throughout the workshop as i was thinking to ran off halfway. But no, i stayed ^^ Reached home like around 6pm. Tmr's gonna be a vvvvery long day so will on wednesday. Haiyaa, i'm sp tired and lazy. So many projects to do. Not that many lah. Hehe(: Got e-learning some more. Dang! I gotta start to be serious #.# Byebye candies.

I just want you to know that, you're the one who makes me happy, who makes me feel that i'm worthful, i'm beautiful and you changed everything in me, and the reason behind my sweet smile is simple, YOU. Everyday i see your cute face and your warm touch i just suddenly forget how to breathe. Your love is like a stone which is hard to break, like a heart which never skips a beat and like a never ending river keep on flowing. But suddenly there is changes in you. Your love is gone and you're getting in distance. Is this how the love ended? So lets be it. Is this the best way? Just for you to make you happy. I ask you to understand but i know you wont. Everytime we cross paths it hurts more to say goodbye. I tried not to care but thats just a lie. Although it seems we're always worlds apart know thats not true cause' you're always here in my heart. XOXO.

No regrets.

2010-03-13T22:34:00.000-08:00

HeyLovelyReaders. That picture up there is so my after-camp look. One word for NCC UNIT CAMP, it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E eventhough tough punishments was always there but i made it through. Yay, i'm so proud of myself. Even better, i get most improved cadet ^^ Fulerrrrrrrmaaaaaaaakkkkk, baek lina \m/ If i'm the selected one, i'll be flying off to USA for an overseas visit for NCC and& i'm involved in the speech day and i'm one of the GOH and one more thing, I'M IN THE NDP PARADE! YAY! Cant wait seeing myself wearing number one on NDP ^^ Ima happy girl(: Okay, i'll shall stop about NCC here.

Just came back from my camp. First day was shizx, second day was super fun cause' of the campfire and after the campfire something shitty happened and i'm so lazy to elaborate cause' its lame,its shameful, its pathetic, its like a WHAT?! WHOAAA.. yeah you'll say this if you know what happened. Moving on..third day was fun AND! damn! its super duper hot. The sun is just scorching all the way lah. pffft. THEN! haha, irritating sia herlina. Went home with Afiqah Agil(i like your name, hee) anyway she gets the best cadet for Part B, kembang? gigi bertraboh?(: After that went eat with her behind school the market shop there, and Afiqah Agil blanjer me! Thankyou sweet sedaaaaaaap kan? Heeee ^^ Took bus 9 and went off home.

Reached home and bath, after bathing i'm here blogging then after this i'm gonna sleep. The time is only 3.07 but the sky is so dark. Its gonna rain and i'm gonna like it. Okay i'm being lame cause' i'm sleepy, i'm tired andddd..i'm outta words. Haiya, so yeah i'm gonna end this post here. One more thing people, I H-A-T-E H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S, byebye(:

Giving up on love.

2010-03-09T20:37:00.000-08:00

So there it goes the truth was revealed at last. Why would you wanna lie to me? Hey dude, listen here you should have told me the truth cause' at least just at least i know that you're being true to me you still care how i feel but no, eventually you lied. I rather be hurt knowing the truth than knowing that you lied and it hurts even more. So she was your girlfriend afterall. You lied for saying she's not. But why? Yeah, i'm jealous so whaaat? You cant do anything at all. Cause' thats your life you decision and i shudnt be the one controlling it. The same as, this is my feelings my decision and you shudnt be asking why am i feeling that way.

From the start i knew there's something wrong. My instincts were right were they. I thought i could at least turn to you when nobody's here for me but damn god you proved me wrong. I'm sorry for saying this, but you're a jerk. You're a liar. You're an asshole. You're everything that descriebes a bastard. Yeah, thats the word i've been wanting to say it to you. BASTARD. Guess what? I'm getting over you. I'm forgetting you already. And i'm getting you off my life. Be good to her, dont treat her like how you treat me. Goodbye.

To His Girlfriend(you know who you are)
He's the kind of guy who hides his feelings. He say he's not jealous but deep inside his heart he's hurting cause' of your doings. He may look tough infront of his friends but trust me that's just a drama. He's lame at times, but make him look adorable by laughing at his stupid jokes it sure make him love you more. If he hugs you, dont let go even if he forced you to it will make him think that he's just everything to you. When you're walking together, hold his hand and never let it go but when his friends are there, let it go cause' he's shy. And when he's hugging you tightly, whisper at his ear how much you love him, cause' that means everything to him. And always tell him that you're lucky to be dating a great guy like him. So never play his feelings and love him sincerely cause' he's the best i ever had.

XOXO, LINA HIS EX-GIRLFRIEND

I dont wanna walk S.O.L.O

2010-03-05T21:14:00.000-08:00

Hey LovelyReaders. Didnt update for like 3 days. Damn tired and i've been coming home late. Right. So Thursday after school went to meet brotha to get my $ and headed to 185 to meet the rest. Went with Jetrin. Ehk boy, dont worry what you told me is being kept safely with me ;DD Went to meet them did something that you guys dont needa know. Cibye kau taufiq, haha, naseb aku sempat delete tau! Went off at 330. Thanks ehk asri and taufiq for being so kind waiting for my 20mins bus to come(: Went home change my clothes and went to meet iin.

At 6pm went to meet hallimah as we were going bedok stadium. Si jazimah kutik tuuh nak ge train lari sngt2 untok sports heat. HAHA! Amcam ma lari ngan aku? Baek punya! Kay, lina sudah. Sumpah ehk hallimah dgn zeema smngt nak train tapi si hallimah ni baru 2 round dah pancet! HAHA! TAK GUNER. Kay moving on..Asri and Dany cutestuff came and yeah i ran with them. Fcuk you lah daniel. HAHA! How heavy he is, he run super fast. Yeah, shudnt look down on you next time ;DD So thats how my thursday was like.

Yesterday didnt do much. Hayati slacked at my house super kecoh. HAHA! Then went to Jet house played computer and then went to some place idk where. Saw Jun Hao. Hie Jun Hao! Hie Jun Hao! Hie Jun Hao! HAHA! Then went NatN house butttt...the mum just came back and the bro also just came back so we just sit at level 10. Pathetic much hah? Then went home at 630. Thats how my friday was like. Okay, lina nyari banyak berbual. haha. Got religious class later. Haish..so yeah bye sweets(:

This goes to my pantat friend, FATANAH.
Hey babe, i know youre getting sick and tired of this. But did you ever realised that you are the one who's creating all these shit yourself. Hey babe, i'm not blaming you for all this. Infact, we all are not blaming you cause' thats how your attitude is and no one can ever change it beside yourself. Sometimes you hafta think before doing something. We tried advising you but you wouldnt wanna listen. You said that he is not playing around with you. He sincerely loves you back. Okay, fine we agree but you've beeen tricked once by them. By their stupid plans. Why will you want to love a guy that has tricked you once? I really dont inderstand you. WE dont understand you. Listen, we're doing all this cause' we do not want, one day you're being shamed by them infront of everybody. Do you want that? No right. So from now on, we're not going to interfere in your life. We dont wanna say anything on what you gonna do. Cause' its your life. We are'nt suppose to control it. But if you need someone to talk to, i'm here, we are here. Remember, we are doing this cause' we care. Not because we wanna make you look bad aye(:

My after-school used to be about US.

2010-03-03T01:23:00.000-08:00

HeyLovelyReaders. School was a bore. After school went to Jetrin's house. Dude, sorry about your ahma. HAHA! I swear i dint mean it. Next time when i come your house i'll swear to myself i wont go inside. I'll just sit outside to wait for the rest :DD Then headed home. Reached home at 4 and wow, i came home early for the SECOND time. Good job herlina ^^ After this post i'm going to take a nap haha, damndamn tired. Friday will be the sports heat already. I think so? Thats what Ms. Irda told us. Wah seyyyyyyyyy, damn tired. Head giddy, visions blur, temperature keep changing. God damn i'm sickkkkkk. Oh btw, someone miss me during my absence in training. HAHA! WTH?! So should i come on friday? Maybe i should..hmm..i'll think about it. Okay readers. Tata.

This was last saturday,

Adek : Kakak, tadi kan biler adek nak balek adek nampak 'chanchai' besaaaaaar, cantekkkkk.

Me : Huh? 'chancai' aper binatang?

Adek : Alah, yang kat roadroad tuh, abeh dier mcm belon besar2 tuh laaaaaah.

Me : OH! CHINGAY?! HAHA!

Adek : Oooops, hehe ^^

HAHA! See how cute is my sister? Tengoklah kakak dier siaper kan ^^ 'Chancai' dan 'Chingay' sungguhhhhhhh jauh bezanyer. HAHA!

Damn Shit

2010-03-02T02:05:00.000-08:00

DID HALF OF MY ENGLISH TEST. HALF OF MY SOCIAL STUDIES TEST. ABSENT FOR MY MATHS AND ART TEST. SCREWED MY GEOG, PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY. I'M GONNA FAIL MY CT1. SO WHAT? BIG FCUK?

Changes in you.

2010-02-28T04:37:00.000-08:00

What were you thinking? Taking revenge on me? Seriously dude, what's gotten into you. Dont you pity your momma? I talk to her and she feels vvvvery concern about you. What happened to you? Where's the old you? If you're angry with me, if you're taking revenge on me, if you hate me or whatsoever that you felt negative towards me then talk to me. Tell staright to my face. You dont have to put all that to my family to your own family.

Seriously i wanna help you. I'm here for you if you have any problems. Not only me, your friends are here too so is your family. Especially your momma. Dang she's nice! She really cares about you. She really want you to be your old self. And so do i. I do all this because i care. Cause' i still..i still love you. Dont you notice it yourself? I believe you can change. Think about it carefully. Will you want this attitude to be in you for the rest of your life? I bet no..

Privat-ed(:

2010-02-27T02:58:00.000-08:00

Hey LovelyReaders(: As you all can see i've privated my blog due to some reasons. You dont have to remove my link on onsugar cause' sometimes i'll be updating on onsugar. For those whom i invited reading my blog, pleasepleaseplease keep my blogger low profile aites. I dont want it to be widely read by strangers and someone whom i'll not be expecting.

Btw, onsugar being such a bitch =.= I wanted to export all my posts from onsugar to blogger but dang! I dont know how to. I hate onsugar. HAHA. Currently i'm searching for a new blogskin. So my blog will be in construction. Will be back when its done.
Basically thats all i wanna talk about. Remember people, keep my blog low profile(:

Boredom starts to strike

2009-11-30T01:13:00.000-08:00

BORED! =.= Haiyo..been rotting at home for the past 2 months eating like a pig sleeping like a wild boar. Whats the difference? There is a difference bitch. A wildboar is a wild pig. Hahahah! Okayy cut this crapp shit. Alright so currently chatting with Azzam. We're both boreddd. Superrr boredd. I'm sickkk and not allowed to go out of the houseee. I wish i'm getting chicken pox ^^ Hahahahah! Dint managed to watch A christmas Carol today cause' i thot wanna meet him and guess what? He ditched me again. Thankkks yo =.= How i wish school starts tomorrow! Uhhhh,btw going malaysia sooooon. Yaaay! \m/ At least i'm on a vacationnnn ;D I'm still thinking if i should follow my dad go Tokyo since he have to go there for a business tripp so i thought i could tag along with my lil' sister and thinking to go Disneylanddd!! Hahahaha, lameeeee. But there's one major problemm. If i were to go there..i will like get away from..all the mascottts you see. Hahahah! Thats the reason i'm still thinking whether to go anot. Haiya..stupid mascotts. pffft =.= Okayy so tmr no plann i think just rotting at home. Now i'm gonna browse through phones at internet and like choose one of them! Be jealous people i'm gonna be very trendy next yeaaaaar! Hahahahah! ;DD Chaoz!

Excitedd + Happy = HIGHHHH!

2009-11-29T07:00:00.000-08:00

Hey people! I'm just so excitedddd! Next year's gonna be real fun for me ;D Alright so here it is..mummy's gonna renovate my roooom and& upon hearing this daddy's gonna take me to ikea to see the furnitures for my rooom. Yayyy! \m/ Next year i'm on piano lessons like WTF?! =.= And its after schooool! Every wednesday and thursday. And i have tuition! Every monday and tuesday. And i got cca after school on friday! CB, no free time!! Urghhhh =.= Looking at the brighter sideee, i'm having my room renovated and i'm gonna have a new phone with student plan! Yeaaaah sms-ing over and over again! Hahahahah :D Btw just caught by mummy when i'm using the laptoppp shittt. She's really gonna confiscate this lappy if i'm awake this late again. Hahahah. Tomorrow meeting him! But hayati wants me to watch with her A Christmas Carol.. Nak ge ngan saper ah? Hahahah, stress stress. Okay people i'm gonna off this lappy before my mum turns up in my room again. And btw, i'm pretty much bored here. Late night chats otp anyone? Hahahahah. Chaoz!

Time is on my sideee!

2009-11-28T21:49:00.001-08:00

Hie people! I'm so exciteddd! I'm outta words! So bye homedogggs!

Keep moving forwardd

2009-11-28T21:23:00.000-08:00

Never i've wanted to have a love like this
A love so beautiful, A love full of scene
I always thought it will ends with happy endings
But i guess thats not what it truly means

You'll burst some laughs and shed some tears
Create some loves and have some fights
You'll be in joy, You'll be in fears
But you'll talk things out and everthings alright

I can't describe how i'm feeling right now
Your eyes your voice reminds me of him
I know i have to move on but i just dont know how
My life without him is just so dim

You just have to give me time
To love you fully and get back in line
Dont worry much cause' we're gonna be together
Even if its gonna take me forever

HARI RAYA HAJI :D

2009-11-27T10:19:00.000-08:00

Time check 2.21am abd yah i'm still awake cause' uploaded chalet picas since amira have been bugging me hahahah see how kind am i. If only the whole world is like ME the world will be like peaceee ;D k dah diaaam =.= So just now had some celebration at cusen's house cause' grandpa and grandma just came back from haji since idk when. I made brownieees with aunty for awhile and played around with my 2cutestufffs haha, and slept from 3 till likee 8? Damndamn sickkk. So miss out the fun and unmelodious karaokayyys. Hahahahas. Went home at 12 and here i am blogging. Took 2 freakinnng hours to upload the photos at facebook cause' it keep on rejecting cause' the files too big =.= Alright so now i'm damnnn tired hope he calls ;D Just a short post for today. Bye people chaoz!

Yessss ahhh!

2009-11-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

Guess whattt? My hope came true yo! Hahaha! Bye people! Muaaaah! Alright i'm lameee =.=

Selamat hari raya haji!

2009-11-26T07:22:00.000-08:00

Hie peopleee! Have not been updating for the past two days cause' i'm stucked at my cousinnnns place. Haiyo..can die yo! No internet and no chatting for two freakinnng dayyyys! Okayyy i sounnnd so 'cyber addict' hahahahah. K so went to cousins place cause' needa help for tomorrow's preparation since i've got nothing to do at homeee. I shudnt have volunteered to but home is such a boreee =.= Now i'm having FLU+RASHES+FEVER(39.6degrees)+HEADACHES=SICKKKKKKKKKKK ): But in terms of physical i'm still fit enough to walk and run arounnnd. Aku kuat lah dheyyy! K so currently chatting with SYAMI and& ADLI. WTH? ADLI is frakingly irritating just like AMIRA SYAFIQAH! Adek bradek maaaah ;DD Hahahaha, so text-ed that stupid cute idiot but yah too bad he cudnt reply. I hopeeee just hopeee he wud call me..*HOPINNNNNNNG* hahahahahah! K i'm lameee =.= Alright people i'm outta worddds yaw! Btw,

KEPADA SEMUA MUSIBAT2,PKM2 DAN KAWAN2 KU SAYA DI SINI INGIN MENGUCAPKAN SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI! BERTAUBAT LAH YERRR?

Chaoz!

Wait For Me

2009-11-26T06:58:00.000-08:00

Time is nearing and i'm still struggling. There's just so many hands that stops me from every step that i'm gonna take to get to you. There's full of obstacles i hafta go through. Its just unbearable but i'm not gonna let anything or even anyone to let my hopes down. Baby, i've climbed the highest mountain, fought all the scary most disgusting mascottts and swimmed the entire ocean. You just hafta wait for me and i'm really gonna be there kissing you with my cute most tender lips. Even if i'm dying in the middle of the world, i'll survive it. I'll be strong and fight for you. You've did everything for me. Took care of me when i fell ill,you shouted at me when i did something stupid,you laughed straight at my face when i'm crying just to cheer me up,and you'll always there even when i dont need you. You've did everything for me so i wanted to pay all this back. I'm ready to face anything thats gonna come later cause i'm doing this because of you. You're all i ever wanted. Baby, i'm one step nearer to dying but i'm already in your heart. You just hafta feel it and i'll be there.

~~After all the shit we've been through its worth it~~

2009-11-24T06:14:00.001-08:00

ILY XO

White Lies

2009-11-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it hurts knowing the truth and it kills seeing the truth. You made your decision, a decision that puts a big wide smile on my adorable face. You mend up your ways and you came back to my life. But will it hurt you if i'll be gone. Will you regret having your ways turn and end up receiving nothing. Will you be mad,angry,frustrated or..will you be happy for me. I dont blame you because of my absence later cause you're all i ever wanted and this is the moment i've been waiting for but you did it in the wrong time. Time flies baby and i hafta go. I'll be back when i think i'm ready. But trust me, i'll always be there for you. No matter how hard the waves hit and separate us..and no matter how confusing the directions are to get to you. I'll be there and you'll be waiting for me. I'll survive through every step i'm gonna take that leads to you. Even if i have to overcome my fears of getting through a whole lot of super scary most disgusting mascottts ;DD And i'll be back with scars and broken bones yet with full of love to give to you. Trust me we're gonna be okayyy.

~~Somethings are best left unspoken so please dont ask me why~~

A Lonely November.

2009-11-22T05:55:00.000-08:00

2 worddds. ITS AWESOMEEEEEEE! Hahaha, quite saddening though. Okay people gotten my phone backkk and yeaaah i'm perfectly fine now. No more nonsense from me. Nuh-uh. I'm the new me alreadyyy. Hahahaha, lanchiao weyyy! I missing school already. But guess what?! I'm soooo not gonna come to school on its first dayyy! My class just sucks for goodness sakeeeee! Its like the chinese port there! Not trying to be racist lah but c'mon lah, there's like only 25% of malays?! Haiyaaa..yaaa... Dah lah semua macam _______! Sickeninggg siaaa! I am so gonna be the Class-Chairman! I'll do whatever it takes to be it. Hah! And& amira's gonna be my vice-chairrr! Hahahahah! Kan mia?? Kiter maki2 satu class. Kiter gangsta paaa! Hahahahahahah! K drop it =.= Alright people thats about it. Chaoz!

Since u been gone

2009-11-19T19:16:00.000-08:00

Hieee people! Wowww,god love me(; Btw, i'm not going away but i'm not going out for 5consecutive days as i'm on probation =.= If i hafta go out guess what? I'm gonna use jeaaaans! HAHAHAHAH! You know why.. hah,okayy so my probation starts tommorow and ends on wednesday so its 120hours. Woaaaah. I'll not be blogging too much. Not in the mood. Btw, i'm planning to quit NCC and join another cca. Bowling mayb? Idk. This gonna be a real short post. And& fyi my class next year suckkkkks to the MAXIMUMMMMMMMMMMM! Haiyaaa..life is freakkkinnn unfairrr ); Like NatN say, this a little hummmp for me. Yeaaah thankkks babe. Chaoz!

Baby, where are you? Where are you when i need you? Are you gone? Or you're just avoiding me? What mistake i've done? Dont you had enough of acting and pretending? Wont you even wanna care about my feelings? They were right were they? You were never there for me. You never heard my callings. Maybe its time to be strong and let you go. Dont you think so?

Bye people.

2009-11-17T22:19:00.000-08:00

People, i'm leaving tonight not sure when will i be back. I've been crying since last night. I'm wrong at this point so i have to accept it. Btw people, be good to your parents and dont ever say such hurting words you'll regret it. Cause' i do. This will be my last time blogging and chatting with you people. Thanks for everything guys love ya'll tc. With Love : HERLINA.

2009-11-16T06:35:00.000-08:00

Heyyyy! I just came back from my oh-so-awesome-possom chalet! Haha, and thanks mia for the bloody secrett -.- Kayy so basically we just check-in and hang around for awhile. Went to Mac first before checking in and saw Saiju! Haha, long time no see hah. And& his friends was soooo flirty. Euwww, like c'mon lah you dont have to say "besok birthday ehk? Nak birthday kiss?" EUWWWWW. Muker jer hot tapi prangai haiz..and some more his girlfriend was just beside him! Shittt i know. It wasnt my fault btw. I guess i was too hot and adorable. Hahahahah! Adrian told me that i look disgusting. You know why? Cause' i look like a barbie doll and some kind like a chuckie! Heyyy! Barbie doll is adorable siaaaa! Haha, adrian..adrian.. Kaykay then went white sands to get mia's anni gift and off to E!hub bowling and we get free food! Then off to the chalet for barbeque. Had alottt of kecoh during barbeque. Greattt time(: Nothing that much actually. I'll let the pictures do the talking(:

2 HOURS & 30 MINS TILL I'M LIKE LEGALLY 14? HAH! CHAOZ!

Foooood much hah(;

2009-11-15T17:11:00.000-08:00

HIE PEOPLE! Time now is 9.12? Hahahahahah! I'm up this earlyyy? No wayyy. The actual reason is i went out with mummy and bro to get some sausages for TODAY'S CHALET! Goddd,i just cant wait for it HAH! Reached home and nothing to do so on my so outdated lappy. I kinda hate my lappy now cause' its black,its BIG + FAT = UGLY. Haiyaa..alright so currently jumping around excited for the chalet later. Hahahah! How i wish i could just fast forward the time. K drop it. I've been like eating fooood all the way. Its lucky that i'm skinny. Hahs. So Saturday ate Swensens for cousins birthday. No picas cause' too busy eating. I ate Lamb Chop + 2Rootbeer float + 1 Banana Split + 2 Sticky Chocolate(i think) ice cream. Mmmmm! Sedaaaaap(: Then at night i was hungry again so cousins slept at my house as mummy & bro is out and daddy as usual not around.I cook spaghetti and my 2 idiotic cousins cook their favourite curry. Haha yeaaah i dont eat malay dish. Only someee. Kay then on sunday was a bommmmmb! Mummy gave 200 freaking dollars to be spent. And guess what do we spent on? FOOOOOOOOOOOOD! Hahahahaah! Firstly went to Tampines the New Thai restaurant and we ate there. I cant really remember the names of the foood so i'll just write what i know. I ate 2 bowl of mee with i think salmon fish and 1 plate of a disgusting thai food which i was forced to finish it up by my two fcuktard cousinns. Hah! I swear its disgusting. Then played arcade for a while and we went to Swensens AGAIN! I was craving for its fish & chips so went there and i ate 2 dish of it and& 1 Beef Steak. I had 2 coke and 1 coke float. Isnt it the same? Hahahahah! Then off home. Today i ate an indonesian food bakso and had 2 bowls of it and& one tub of chocolate and cookies ice cream and its for breakfastttt(: I sure gain alooooot of weight but i dont see the difference in my body. Hah! Okayyy i've nothing to post now so chaoz!

Are you there?

2009-11-14T23:36:00.000-08:00

I'M SICK. I'M MOODLESS. I'M BREAKING DOWNNNNN. Haaaah, yes life is complicated. Wayyyy more complicated than i've expected. What happen to people nowadays? They're becoming ridiculously weird. Am i too? I guess a little. See that photo. Awww,look how weirdly cute are we.I KNOW(: I miss him. Yeah i do. Alottt. Guess its fate that brings us together and separate us slowwwlyyy. Are we? Guess so. He changed He changed. He changed. I cant accept the fact that HE CHANGED. Life is unfair. But not all the time i suppose. People keep telling me his ruining my beautiful enchanting life. Yeaaah he is but he's the best you could ever had in your entire life. Trust me he's wonderful. Totally fabulous. Just look at him. Stare at his innocent big cute eyes and wowww he's adorable. Too bad his mine. Hahs! You're not an angel that god send me to make me smile, instead you're a devil that god send me to make me cry. Its hard for me to put the words in the correct order accordingly but yeah, i cant lie to myself so I LOVE YOU.

p/s:Dont get a totally cute boyfriend, cause' you might have to share it with some other fcuktard girls. *winks*

2009-11-14T04:33:00.000-08:00

Tidak sanggup lagi ku menahan cinta ini
Perit rasanya di hati apabila kau meninggal pergi
Tidakkah cukup cinta yang ku beri
Kembali lah wahai kekasih

Apakah erti percintaan ini
Yang ku tahu hanya duka dan lara
Kini kau sudah berubah
Menjadi si dia yang tidak aku kenal

Di saat ini baru ku tahu
Siapalah sebenarnya dirimu
Kekasih yang ku nanti-nati
Dan akhirnya tidak kembali

Mengapakah kau buat begini
Apalah silapku selama ini
Janganlah kau meninggalkanku terluka
Kerana untukku kaulah segalanya

~~Am i dreaming or am i just seeing the new you?~~

2009-11-14T04:29:00.000-08:00

HELLO WORLD! I'M BORED! I'M MAD! I'M STRESSED! I'M UNDER PRESSURE! I'M EVERYTHING THAT GOT TO DO WITH A BROKEN HEART! YEAAAAAH! I GOT MY HEART BROKEN! BROKEN FOR GOOOOOD! I LIKE IT! ITS AWESOME! YOU SHOULD TRY IT! GET YOUR HEART BROKEN FOR FREE! NYAHAHAHAHAS! BYE PEOPLE! AND HELLLLLLLLLLO ZOMBIEEEEEES!

2009-11-13T06:36:00.000-08:00

You wasn't there when i was falling
Nor did you realised how many blood i've been shedding
Will you ever be here to rescue me
Even if you're blind and you can't see

I dint wanna let go of you
But if i were to pretend,
Its obvious that i'm not being true
I just have to hold my breath for a second
And stop myself from saying I Love You

I wanted you to be only mine
And sometimes i'll start to cry thinking bout you
When people ask me what is wrong
I'll just fake a smile and lied that i was fine

I always thought you'll be there for me whenever,wherever
But you treated me as though ima stranger
I'll be strong trying moving on with my life and make a new start
But i'll be weak when you keep coming back and break my heart

GOODNIGHT EARTH HUMANS! (]:

2009-11-13T02:35:00.000-08:00

Hie peopleee! My day today was fun..wonderful but rather saddening and full of heartbreaking and tear shedding. Sounds cool huh. Kay so went to meet Azzam at bedok inter as he wants to give me my presenttt. Thanks for the sweet 'thing' you bought me(: And afta took bus 222 and bus-ed to Natasha Nahadi's blok. Then we bus-ed off to Tampines Interrr. Ate MacDonalds and yeaaah, i was damn hungryyy. Thanks to ME now Natasha Nahadi is playing the Monopoly Gameee. Hah! Told'cha it was funnn(; And& thanks to ME;AGAIN cause i took people's sticker for Natasha Nahadi and furthermore its 8 STICKERS. Wowww,hahahah i found it on people's trayyy (]: Afta that we headed off to Cotton On. I was browsing through a few dresses and i found one cute one that suits on me. And guess what? It does look cute on me. Hahahahah. See the photo up there? Thats the cute girl that the whole town have been talking about. Hahahah! CRAP! Btw THANKS NATASHA NAHADI FOR THE WONDERFUL SKIRT;LOVE IT! Then somebody text-ed me and told me his under my blok. Had a misunderstanding afta awhile and yeah thanks for the negative comments. I'll pretend that you dont mean to say it. Hey people, do you ever heard of crying in the rain instead of kissing in the rain? Yeaaah, it does sound funny and unrealistic but tell you what thanks for making me cry in the rain alright. I love it. I really do -.- Headed back homee and spent my day in the room. And before i end my full of drama life, i just wanna say that MY FREAKING BIRTHDAY IS LIKE 4 MORE DAAAAAAAAAAAYS! HELL YEAH IT IS! (]: For those dumbass who have no idea what i've been talking bout these few days about the 6 more days..5 more days thing its about how many days left till i'm legally 14! Nyahahas (]; Okayy people chaoz!

~~Thanks for the vulgars,scoldings,shoutings,ditchings make it short the NEGATIVE 'COMPLIMENTS' you gave. I really appreciate it i truely do. pfffft.~~

2009-11-12T03:27:00.000-08:00

I'M BOREEEEEEEDDD PEOPLE! So thats the reason why i've create another wonderful so romantic yet full of heartbreaking songgg (]: How isit huh? huh? huh? Its great isnt itttt? Hahahahahah! Guess whattt? I cant wait for the chalet! Yaaaaay! \m/ 4 moreee days to the chalet and thats gonna be the last time i'm gonna see my irritating,so violent,full of vulgarities,never ending misunderstandings yet wonderful frienddddds till the next newww year. Its rather saddening i knowww *sobbing* yeaaah, i really am gonna miss you guys. Just inmagine us separating into different freaking classes? Uh! NOO! tsktsktsk...kay dah diam. So today nothing much. Went out at 3 since hallimah missed me so much. Hahs! Then like 5pm daniel came and yeah i dont wanna talk about what happen -.- At around 530 i went home and i didnt wanna talk about thiss too -.- So cycled home. Reached home watch teevee,eat,bathe and finally blogging. Tmr will be going out with Natasha Nahadi since she wants to buy me my presentttt (]; Before that will meet Muhd Azzam Wahab(did i get your father's name right?) cause he wants to give my presentttt (]; Wowwww, two presents in one day? How impressive! I'm so happy yet confused and sadddd at the sameee time. Haaaa life is full of unexpectations righhhtt. So people, be ready..to face the true meaning of life! And rememberrrr! EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED! YEAAAAAAAAAAAH! Hahahahah, okayy people chaoz!

p/s: 5 MOREEEE DAAAAYS PEOPLEEEEE!

You know what? Since you want it this way yeaaah, let it be this way. But remember this and mark my words accordingly i'm not letting you step on my head for another time. I'm sick and tired of all this. I'm sick of acting, acting as if nothing had ever happened. nothing as if i'm not hurt at all. and acting as if i'm fiine with everything! NO! I'm not gonna let this go again. I'm not letting myself hurt this time round. Yes baby, i love you. I really do. But cant you see that you've been hurting me by your changes? Its damn obvious. Damndamndamn obvious! Infact its wayyyyyyy too obvious! I dont wanna shout no more. Cause' you know why? Its not even worth it! Just let me know if you change your mind. I wont take back my words but let me tell you that no matter what i say i'm still not gonna change the way i love you.

2009-11-12T03:09:00.000-08:00

It hurts seeing you changing
And it totally sucks hearing me crying
I didn't know you were like this
Since the last time we kiss

I was tired of you with your sorry
Cause' i know you didnt want this for our 15 monthsary
You've been treating my badly
But i just sat there crying silently

I didn't want you to be this way
But i have to accept the fact anyway
So keep your words and never take them back
Cause' i want you to leave me with no regret

2009-11-11T00:55:00.001-08:00

People, you HAVE TO read this post. Its important. Wayyyyy more important than whatever you're doing or going to do okay. So BETTER READ and read EVERY SINGLE WORD. Okayyy? The reason why this is so important cause its just so important and the reason this post is separated by the first post for today is because i want to shout it all out loud so that everbody knows that it just left..

6 MOREEEEEE DAAAAAAYS PEOPLEEEEEE! 6 M.O.R.E D.A.Y.S! Ahahahahahas (];

Yeaaaah i know i'm lame but what to do i'm ME baby and no one can change ME! Chaoz!

2009-11-11T00:34:00.000-08:00

You always promised you'll be here
But instead you left me in state of fear
I waited for you till tomorrow ended
And thats where my love towards you faded

Let me know if you're coming
Cause' i'm still waiting
Its hard for me to say i hate
But this is fact and its my fate

I'll try my best not to cry
So when i see your photo i'll just sit and sigh
I thought i'll always be your number one
But i know i cant have everything mine.

2009-11-10T02:34:00.000-08:00

Hie people. Today was okay lah not bad. Did some shopping again but this time with Marissa Faiqah. Hahahah, thanks babe it was fun hope you're not binget with me :[) Kayy so woke up at 915 and yeaaah thanks mia for waking me up. Fast game sia mandi. Then went out at 930. Rushed to school cause wanted to hand in the option form. Met marissa outside of school. Yeaaah that explains why i did shopping with her. So afta passing up the phone went Tampines and i went to Cotton on and i found this skirt! Lawaaaaaa! Somebody buy for me cancancan? Its waist is stretchable and& the skirt is kinda floral kind of skirt. Niceeeeeee! I'll post the picture later. K so then 10minutes of deciding to buy but in the end i dint buy. Duet nak habes. Ni past binget giler babi. We went to BHG and guess what?? I saw this freaking girl wearing the skirt that i wanted to buy! Cheeeeeebyeeeeee! Kimaaaaaaak, binget lah siaaaalz! But nehmind lah the skirt looks freaking ugly on her but it does look hot on me. Ahahahahs ;[) K then afta buying McFlurry that i've been craving went home. Btw sorry kiraaa for ditching you. Seriously i'm sorry. When i wanna go home received badddd news so cudnt follow kiraaa teman her to Mac. Sorrysorrysorrysorry. K so then went homeeee. That was my day. Two straight consecutive days of shopping. But i know how to save $ tauuuu. Alright chaoz!

2009-11-09T04:32:00.000-08:00

Goshhhhhh! I'm so into shopping girls stuffs right now. At least i'm achieving my goal of becoming more to the girl side :[) Today nothing much lah. I was suppose to attend training but too bad lah i lazyyy. So went out to send my brother his football stuffs with my brand new 'pio-pio'(spelling error?) bike. Banyak lah aku nyer brand new hahahah! Paderhalpaderhal. Kayy then after that otw home met Farhan AND Nordin how cool huh? and& also daniel. talktalktalk then went home to get ready to go out with daniel and at last he ditched me! Thanks ey -.- So cycled home and guess what happened. I was cycling and this mat bang into me paderhal lane dier takder orang ey! Kimaaaaaaak punyer jantan. The fight goes like this.

Its not really a fight lah its just that i make things big. Nyahahahs. Mat2 gitu tak perlu kasi muker! Kayyy then cycled all the way home and damnnn i fell 3 freaking times cause my bike got no brake. Haiyooo..malu bebbbb! So reached home get ready and went out. Halfway through he called and said he cant go out cause wanna follow his momma to the hospital. I was sot but understanding at the same time. Yeaaah, i have the kindness hidden somewhere inside my clean heart :[) So went back home again. Cool kan macam walking marathon gitu gerek tawwwh..(i'm being sarcarstic btw) k then reached home i suddenly was craving for double cheeseburger. So...went out AGAIN. In Mac i saw Kiraaa! OMG we were like missing each other like hell siaaa. Kimaaak i shudnt have acted like that just now. Mcam dah berapa tahun tak jumper gitu. Kayy so we went to my house BACK AGAIN TO MY HOUSE and me amirahh kiraa played taiti till like 330 then took cab dropped amirahh behind Mac and went off to kiraa's housee. Thenthen took mrt to tampines. And woaaaah we're noisy. Superly freakingly fuckingly noisy. Yes we were. Firstly went to Isetan see that first photo up there? The left one yeaaah that was at isetan then head off to split. See the sleeveless there? I was damn regretful for not buying that shirt. It was onylyy 8 dollarrrrs! Shittttt siaaa! -.- K dah diam. Afta that decided to look for the shop that AMIRA SYAFIQAH said it was a secret. And guess what? The shop was like shitttt! No offence ah. I've been to the shop before and i cant even remember it. Haiyaaa..k then went to T1 and went to DIVA we try here try there but in th end bought nothing. So off to the last shop CHAMELEON so try here try there and YES we bought something. Eventually we felt so satisfied. Not that satisfied lah cause we were too rushing. So we head to the mrt. Jalan kes fast game siaaa. Tuh lah confident sangat masi siang biler dah 630 sendiri kanchong tsktsktsk..k then went homeee. Ey, nyari aku cakap banyak ehk? Asal ah? Somethings' different. Hahahahah, k lah dah penat type2. Bye peopleeee! Still missing me? Stop it lah i'm already back okayyy?! Hahahahah, just for funnn cause i know there's some people who is still missing me. Keep on the missing kayy? Chaozz!

2009-11-07T21:58:00.000-08:00

I'm back peopleee! Actually i'm back like 3 days ago? Lazyyyy update lah. I bet you guys miss me. Dont be shy lah, just say that you miss me okayy? I know you miss me. Takyah malu2 untok ckp. Kayyy dah mepekkk. You guys might already read other people's blogs for the elaboration of the camp so i'm not gonna type it all out. Who's gonna read it btw cause' the camp was a tortureeeeeeee! So yesterday had my religious arab test and i passed for crying out loud. For the very first time i'm promoted to Primary 5 yessss aaaaah. After so long yeaaah. Okayyy so after my religous class went out with cousins for mummy's family dayyyy. The lucky draw was damnnnnn gerek lah suaaar! Brother won 2 ipod and i won 2 tickets to Hong Kong but sadly mummy's goin' with her friend and my irritating bro gave one of his pink ipod to his girlf. Cheeeebyeeee lah! -.- So in the end i got nothing. Wtf?! Takper lina birthday lage 1 week. Heee(: So then watch a movie UP(after so long) it was really like in a movie theater with big screen and blasting sound only that it was free. The movie UP yesterday really opened my heart and it really make me realised that love can take you to anywhere. Even to the top of the sky. You will dare to do anything for the one you love. Even when they are gone from your life, you still wants to do anything that your love one wanted to. Yes people thats true love. So after that went homeee. Today supposedly going to mummy's dinner n dance. I bought a beautiful dress and at last i couldnt follow. Fuck i know. Cause' i'm sickkkk. Haishh..suay. Btw, thanks Amira Syafiqah Binte Abdul Rashid for saving my lifeee(you know for what) You're the best bitch that i ever had no doubt bout that kayy baby(: So till here byeeee suckaaaaas!(: Stop missing me i'm already back!

Lina, no point staying awake all night crying for the one you love. Think back isit worth it? Will he let his tears down for you? How are you sure that he'll stay up all night crying for you too? Yeaaah, you can say that you love the person but are you being reasonable here? Why are you defending him too much. What did he do that makes you cant forget about him even a single second? What makes him so special to you lina? Yes, he does everything for you and he even gave all his love out to you. But he changed lina doncha see the difference in him? Love is everywhere baby and guess what? Nothing lasts forever. One day you guys have to be separated. Its sooner or later. But that doesnt mean you'll not find him back. You will. Trust me lina, even if you have to separated with him, he'll be back to you again. Cause' i believe he's only yours.

2009-10-31T21:14:00.000-07:00

Yo peopleeeee. This may be the last day i'll be posting cause tmr i'm goin for my 1 week OBS CAAAAAMP! Yaaaaay \m/ Hahahahahah, i'm super exciteddd (]: Okayyy, so today i'll be goin' out with Natasha Nahadi to buy camp stuffs. Yah i know we last minute but what to do. Will be goin' out at 0130hours. Cheyyy, hahahahah kayy lame -.- Guess what? My camping bag is the size of my body! Besar giler sia! Badan aku dahlah kecik haizz..and& some more its heavyyyy! Okayy stop it. Camp nyer criter nanti2 lah ey. Btw i got a new bicycle! Super niceeeeee. Thanks LILZIQO! Haaah, you should know who you areee(: Kayyy, i'm totally out of words now so for the people out there please takecare of yourself while i'm gone. As if it will make a difference to the world when i'm gone -.- Bye world dont forget to miss me peopleee.

Baby, i dint realised it at first but as days passed on i suddenly noticed it. The difference in you. You're changing. Yes you are. Its like there's a second girl in you. The way you talk to me, the way you reacted to me and the way you've been giving me excuses. LAME excuses that i think its stupid. I just wanna know the truth. Are you duplicating me? Cause' i think you are. Just make the right choice baby please, dont start it again. I'm sick and tired of getting blamed on in every single thing cause' its not fair.

2009-10-29T21:18:00.000-07:00

Heyyyy people.

OBS CAMP IS IN 3 DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS!
I am so looking forward to it! 5 daaaays of home freee problems free how fun can it be! Ahahahahahs (]; Okayy so let me summarize abit kayy. Tuesday and Wednesday was a normal boring school daaaay and& thursday was the last day i saw myself as a Sec 2 kidd. Hahahahah, no difference actually cause' i'm still short, horrible, hyperactive, over-control but cute kiddd. Ey true whattt (]: So today just slacked at homeeee. Tomorrow PTC and guess whattt? My mum's not looking forward to it. How cooool. Pagi-pagi dah nak cari gadoh sia biler mau habes mummmmmyyyy.. Irritating sia my mum. Okay drop it. Sometimes i just miss my old life. Maybe i regret having freedom? Naaaah, dont think so. Maybe its just me. Ahhhh, stop it lah linaaa. Now lets talk about next yeaaar kayyy? I still have not decided which subject i'm gonna take. Ms farinna suggested i should put DNT then F&N then EBS then ART then CPA then AMATHS. You think i should put it this way? I was thinking of taking EBS but some MR/MS KNOW-IT-ALL insulted me when i said i wanna take EBS. So what if its an ITE future? Does not mean i take EBS i'll end up in ITE whatttt. Pfffft -.- Why am i suddenly talking about schoool? Waitwait, WHY THE FUCK AM I TALKING THIS WAYYYY? Something in me is really wrong. Hushhhusshh! Hahahahah, kayy i'm bein lame. Btw to all my friends see ya' on MONDAAAAAAAAAAAY! (]:

XO LINA